Earth-life

After all these years

2012-02-02T23:34:00.002+08:00

Can't even remember when was the last time i updated the blog... hmmm... i know, the last time should be about the eva song. As times goes by, it makes me realized that 人越长越大，好像都越不能流泪。理智总要走在行动前。 Xp told me its okay to cry, but except that sentence, no other matters allowed me to.

Am I hiding my feelings to everyone? Does anyone every know what's on my mind? Or even myself? Do I even know what do I want anyway? Do I really allowed to cry? Do I allowed to be sad? Can I? Can I be sad without anybody worried about me? I promise I will be okay with myself. Can I be sad for unlimited of time? Instead like be a zombie????? Who cares actually? You care like you do care or you care like you just want to be a good friend be there for a friend when they are sad and you don't even want to know what's your frens feeling?

Why do I always be there for the people who need me but it's not the same story when things come to me? I think im gonna be crazy real soon..... I'm so lost..... Where's my sign of direction?

17.01.11

2011-01-17T23:38:00.002+08:00

这首歌，在很久很久以前，这些话是说给某个人听的，但今天，我想说给你听。
可是我可否对你有那么重要？人生到底是要留些什么？六七年后，当我们分开了，你会想些什么？还会想起我吗？
我希望二零一一年的生日，对你来说是一生难忘。 k.

081210

2010-12-08T10:47:00.002+08:00

It's been awhile i didnt update anything in here. Just wanna share a nice song which remind me of my life now... Don't know when will things end between us but i will cherish every single moment with you...

** 认输了。。

2010-01-24T02:51:00.002+08:00

够啦。。还有什么再衰的东西一次过来吧。。不用一样再来一样。。够了吗？
刚从警察局会来，够衰吗？

我错啊？我做错什么？在我最像要人帮忙的时候，谁会在我身边？
我错我错。够了吧？还要什么？是要惩罚我什么？

18.01.10

2010-01-18T02:32:00.002+08:00

好像有一个很重要的东西在等着我做决定。作了这个决定后生活就会完全不同了，以前的我会渐渐消失。。
我会变得怎样呢？我会敢踏出这一步吗？原来其他人也看得出我不会再相信爱情。。

** 我的心情

2010-01-07T23:13:00.004+08:00

事情发生也快要一个月了。。听说你早都跟那女的公开手拖手，我还能说什么。。很明显你早也决定了这一切。这个结局应该就是你要的吧。。跟我分手你应该只有不舍得，根本没有想过要挽留。其实你唱趁早是想唱给我听的吧？我早也料到的，只是不想相信。

我觉得分手真的会让人疯掉。我想如果前几个星期我没有好好的控制自己，我能我真的会疯掉了。回想起来分手后跟你说了那么多东西，最想让我收回的是“我很羡慕她！“。如果再给我多一次机会的话，我也不要了。

你让我明白很多东西，你带了我去了现实生活的恋爱。你让我明白爱原来不是最重要的。原来钱真的很重要。很奇怪的是分手后真的很多有钱的男人在追我，甚至多数是真的很有钱而上了年纪的男人。我觉得我对你的爱可能真的变了恨，恨你恨到很想把那种男人的钱骗光再把钱扔去你的脸。凡真你那么爱钱。

真的觉得自己对爱情的观念突然变得很大，不错吧。还记得还没跟你在一起时我的爱情观很简单，很单纯。只要我一心一意为你付出，你一定不会走回你以前那条路。是你在我最失落的时候跟我讲在这个世界上我只要相信你，一切都会没事的。是你亲口跟我说你已经不是以前的林君白了。我为了你真的放弃了很多很多我一路一来都觉得他们是很好的男人。而你呢？你却为了一个这样的女人放弃了我。

当每个人都认为你会挽留我的时候，当每一个人都在问”他还有再挽回吗？“我真的觉得很羞。。真的。。因为你根本没有挽留过我。。给我的感觉你真的很不得我快点离弃，因为我走的第二天，你就去找她了。曾美锌，你真的是一个可怜狗。被人家玩够了就丢在一边，明知他已不爱你了还死笨的在他身边做牛做马。还真的去相信真心付出可以挽留他。。哈哈哈哈哈！！笨笨笨！！明知他不爱你了还要笨笨的把家人摆上台。弄到爸爸妈妈笨笨的走去斗湖。我还会永远记得你那时有几不想应酬我爸爸妈妈。

这段感情发生的东西，你认为我还会对爱情有什么看发？经过你给我的一切回忆后，我真的很希望跟你做回一生一世的朋友。。我想看你以后会变成怎样的一个人？你妈妈会把你的一生变得怎样。而我，离开你后会有几幸福。。

放心吧，我对你的仇恨很快就会忘掉。可能一年后的我已经忘了你是怎么伤害我。因为我根本就是一个对不开心的事善忘的人。

有个问题一至在我脑海中，“到底我是做错了什么，会让你如此的狠心来伤害我？”有时真的很想把你一切不见得光的东西一次过跟你妈妈讲完出来，好让你以后不可能得到她的信任。。让你受我现在受的痛苦。可是我没你那么狠心。

林君白，其实早已知道你早已不爱我了，是我还蠢蠢的相信你有一天会回来我身边。。是你要把你所谓分手的“原因”隐瞒，是你让我自己去想我们分手是为了钱，因为我没有钱，太依赖你。我才会变得这样，不管我以后变得怎样，我要你以后都记得我为什么会变。

**让你欢喜让你忧

2009-12-18T12:29:00.002+08:00

你说我让你欢喜让你忧。。
很希望我还会有机会听你唱这首歌给我听。。。

爱到尽头覆水难收
爱悠悠恨悠悠
为何要到无法挽留
才又想起你的温柔
给我关怀为我解忧
为我凭添许多愁
在深夜无尽等候
独自泪流独自忍受
多想说声我真的爱你
多想说声对不起你
你哭着说情缘已尽
难再续难再续
就请你给我多一点点时间
再多一点点问候
不要一切都带走
就请你给我多一点点空间
再多一点点温柔
不要让我如此难受
你这样一个女人让我欢喜让我忧
让我甘心为了你付出我所有

爱到尽头覆水难收
爱悠悠恨悠悠
为何要到无法挽留
才又想起你的温柔
给我关怀为我解忧
为我凭添许多愁
在深夜无尽等候
独自泪流独自忍受
多想说声我真的爱你
多想说声对不起你
你哭着说情缘已尽
难再续难再续
就请你给我多一点点时间
再多一点点问候
不要一切都带走
就请你给我多一点点空间
再多一点点温柔
不要让我如此难受
就请你给我多一点点时间
再多一点点问候
不要一切都带走
就请你给我多一点点空间
再多一点点温柔
不要让我如此难受
你这样一个女人让我欢喜让我忧
让我甘心为了你付出我所有

** 结束了。。

2009-12-18T00:49:00.003+08:00

十二月十五日，我们真的结束的这段感情。我还能说什么，事情演变成这样，我真的不知除了分手我们还有什么选择。因为你给我的感觉是你现在最想放弃的东西是我。

也许你对我的爱很早已消失了，有几久没听过你真心的说我爱你，我也几乎忘记了。你呢? 你还记得吗? 今天觉得很难呼吸，好像周围的人都很开心。有很多东西我真的还是很不明白，为什么你说的分手原因完全可以没有因为她? 如果不是她，为什么她可以是我们每次吵架的火种? 你真的很爱她吧，就连跟我分手都可以在保护她，我是该羡慕她吗? 因为她得到了我所谓的"最幸福的事"。

原来人在爱情里受伤的时候真的可以变的不同。原来在爱情里受伤真的可以想东西想的很灰。原来受过伤后才会相信爱情里专一的对一个人真的是个错。原来坏人真的可以过得更很开心。原来你之前的感情教你的东西不是要专一，而是记得分手前一定要先找到令外一个先陪在你身边。可能我真正要羡慕的人不是她，而是你。

每当自己在发呆时会在想，你是什么时候会想起我，你们两个在我和你的床睡时你会想我吗? 还是我根本没有出现过在你脑海中? 到底我的离开你会有几伤心?到底你会有几舍不得? 头脑好像还有很多疑问，说可以回答我?

我。。。以后还会相信这个世界有真爱吗? 到底爱是什么?

** WHY?

2009-07-30T00:01:00.003+08:00

why am i feels like things is changing around? does good thing really dont belong to me? does every good things that i thought will stay with me forever will go away soon?
does forever really exist? anyone? please?

are things between both of us really changing? or i am thinking too much? why this kind of feelings keep stuck inside my heart and i do really feel damn hurt... why?
why this hurt feeling feels so pain?? are we going to be ok? or should i really get ready to be alone again?

God, if i really grand for one wish for the rest of my life... i just want him to stay beside me.... please?

** 23.03.09

2009-03-23T14:06:00.000+08:00

Kinda disappointed in things....... tired of thinking.... just wish to concentrate in my assignment.....

** 22.03.09

2009-03-22T14:12:00.002+08:00

dear diary...

it's been a long long time i didn't post up any of my updates here.... been busy for my study and tuition.... those two things just drive me to crazy sometimes... it has been a very very stressful period... and i don't even know how to express my stress out... i didn't go club for like ages, i quit drinking for a period of time... things just going not that well for me this few days, i have no idea what makes me feel so moody and uncontrollable. i just hate this kind of feelings happen on me..

i think having lifestyle like hsiao ping is not a bad idea after all, she can go out without bringing her handphone since she know that ngiu will only call him at 10pm.. so she set herself a freedom period everyday... it's a upper level of relationship i think.. that's not a bad idea... at least they still keep the relationship... at least they still love each other and the most important thing is.... as long as they don't fight... i mean... what's the main purpose for a relationship actually? for my opinion, as long as they don't fight, they still love each other, that's it. what do human being tends to care about what the another one doing, how's the life going on... they will share whenever they want to share with u... why do u so bother to disturb their life? no one have the right to do so... except God... a person doesn't belong to anyone... they just belong to God... wow.... deep... ocean deep... i think this is the role of a perfect girlfriend... the most reasonable girlfriend in the world characteristic would include this i think.... good... this is my target.. or i should say goal of the year!! i want to be the most adorable, reasonable perfect girlfriend in the world!!!!!!!! by the end of the year, we'll see if i get the award.... if i really get the award... hmmmm.... going to award myself with something.... hmmm........ we'll see

oh ya! keke... birthday coming.... nothing much i expect... i just want my NDS to be with me.... love my NDS.....

** Christmas coming and i miss you

2008-12-04T09:30:00.003+08:00

One Sweet Day - Mariah Carey & Boyz II Men
Christmas is coming... duh... i can still remmeber the moments i celebrate christmas with my family... there will be big parties throw by aunt Grace, there will a lot and lots of christmas present for the kids, nice foods and drinks... I still remmeber when i was small at keningau, i like to be the entertainer of there all by singging and dancing in front of everyone... and there will be alot of the uncle and aunt sitting along with the warm christmas eve...

As i grow older, or i should say after the whole family moved to KK and uncle James moved to Tomomggong for the estate medical assistant, then the christmas party switched into the estate. it's been 21 yrs spending christmas with her, and this year... there will be 1st year christmas without her, i really miss her alot.... i think if the monkeys fren around there will be someone understand me here...

i had dreams about her this few days, how come everyone who dream of her can be seen that she's so happy and healthy in heaven.. but while in my dream, she's suffering so much? just woke up from my sleep, the moment i woke up, i missed her alot. cried till the eyes were swollen...

i miss you....

I used to love and hate christmas so much... i love christmas because of the celebration bring up along those relative come together with you to gather around and hate christmas because i will get envy on ppl who have their another one with them during the celebration.. go check back the older blog about last year chirstmas. i did have fun with the family during that time... but i never knew it was the last time with her...

ba... bye bye la... malas wanna talk lagi... tears cant stop leaking...

** 27.11.08

2008-11-27T00:58:00.003+08:00

Got my new tattoo last night.... i think it's around 7.30pm... keke... finally my butterfly got another kawan with her already... and i kasi her pakai baju baru dy since her baju lama's warna jatuh already... keke.. going to update this post with the pictures real soon... it's only RM120.. cheap o kan... thanks collin!!!

5 more days to go... hate kk's life since i dont have anything to do here.... i rather have my studies with me now, at least i can study... adoi..... keep sick a this few days... why a? until i dont feel like going out from house... i stay on my comfort house for the whole day already... kekekeke....

Con..

It's 2am now and i just finished a drawing for my lao gong as i promised him earlier...

I dont mean anything by drawing this with the paint but i think this is really his DREAM, WISH OF THE YEAR!!! it's 80% at this moment... i dont know when will it reach the boiling point... few days back he said we stop going to the clubs until we meet each other and go together... i think it's a"7 days countdown during that time... look wat has he done... he is in the club with his friend now... it's only a 2 days ago thing and he has totally forget about it... nvm... i doesnt really put any hope for his to remember my things anyway...

he'll forget the thigns i told his in a minute everything... when will he remember things i said to him?

-solution: he wants to wait me get pot lot then he will remember the things i said...

how did i get the solution?

-He told me... see... guys... get what i mean?

** Labuan plus KK

2008-11-22T15:29:00.004+08:00

Eh kawan... tired upload photos in here... i uploaded all in facebook... go check it out there... :)

* Little bit KL trip pics

2008-11-21T15:21:00.004+08:00

*baby u see urself a... so toh soi a i tell u...

*hao geli oooo

*went to fish spa with love, baby and lao gong

*In Airasia airport kk... fai fai go into the plan plzz... tired standing already..

*trying on our new camera.

* Same a k... go check those pictures out at facebook

** 21.11.08

2008-11-21T02:22:00.003+08:00

It should be a feeling that i would like to remind myself on the 20.11.08, but it's 2.33am in the morning already... nvm... it's me and my lao gong's 6months anniversary today :) happy happy.... but i dont think he will remember a thing... nvm..

Hmmm.... oh ya... again... sorry for not updating the blog for a while... went through a lot of things and places during this period, dont really have the time and mood to update this earthlife thingy yet... kekeke... sorry... i promise i will write out a summury in this lovely diary as soon as i am "available". kekeke... and lots and lots of pictures to upload... so i need to make sure i have enough time to sit infront of the computer to do the update...

Ok... main point... here come the main point.. i went through my old blog a minutes ago... woww.... a big wow to my msn blog... although there's not much details stated inside But, really do recall me alot of thing about the past.... and it remind me how do i go through all the stuff i went through... my dear monkeys friend.. suddenly miss them alot... because i recalled the pain and worries i gave them... the blog reminded me how important they are to me in my life... how i can;t go through things without them... here again... dear babies, i'm truthly sorry about the worries i gave to you guys in the past... *sob* i love you guys so much... i really dont know how can i go through things without you guys....

things started to change since everybody have their own life... including me... i could feel that everyone is growing up and found their own life... or i should say things started to turn into a "matured" friendship since everyone is growing up.... like how ppl always describe friendship, you dont always get to bump into each other because of the time limit, but they will always inside your heart... those monkeys i used to see them everyday is no more free to go out yamcha with me anymore, all have their own road and choice in life.. they are going through thier life that would determine their future... working, saving money for things...

so does me, i changed alot within this year... go through alot of things... alot of 1st time experiencesssss.... alot of character came up, some character went off my life... i have a totally changed life after the middle of the year... i pay lot lot lot lot lot more attention on my studies since i am going into my 3rd yr soon, ya i dont mean like i didnt pay attention on my studies before la k... keke... life totally changed... from a everyday drinking life to a everyday stay home life... imagine that... friday night? i am home doing my taxation revision and the exam is still weeks to go? unbeliveable for me.. even if chelsy i also seldom jumpa her already... and elaine... sorry baby... i dont know why everytime also got things bottering us to meet up... mesti got hal happen.... alicia also... since she move to country height i also seldom see her already.... reynie... i miss you so much... badly... everybody i think... collin, kday, the gang i always went to shen with, my cousin... duh.. think back i really spend alot of time on my study for the past 6 months... i think this is what you do when you get to really understand the responsibility you are really caring in life... i mean my responsibility for now is study, get a good result.. things scared me alot.. i really scare i wont get through my degree program, to prevent fail, i better study hard... am i right my S? kekeke...

Argh.... everyone said i gain my weight!!! shite... i really need to get myself to do some exercise already... i went to dinner at ah jia's house just now... before that i went to fetch my "in law" and ah fung at airport just now... see what i mean? planned to find alicia and elaine after 5... suddenly get a phone call from my lao gong said i need to go airport and dinner... i dont mean to blame anything but i really dont know why everytime also got things stopping us to meet up... okok.. go back to the story... when i went up to ah jia's house, ah jia and her friend said i am fat already.... ah doi... ok ok... i better go into bed now... i promised myself to go jogging early in the morning!!! i must!!! Mei Hsing!!! save urself!!!!!!! okok... good nite babies!!! muaksss!!!!

** Vanished... bye bye

2008-10-25T21:23:00.004+08:00

known the fact for quite awhile, before my mum transferred to Labuan. now there's evident to support the fact.

what do i felt now? dont feel like talk about it... dont really know how to overcome the mood i am having. happy that the evidence finally came out? disappointed? feel like cryin but what for to cry?

i do feel disappointed for things happening now... he's someone that i admire since i'm small... a hero for me... everything's vanished by now... i'm having my final exam next wednesday, been studying very hard this few days, when things come out, i though i can ignore things and get going with my study. cannot tu....

like things i always felt proud went away just a minute like "that".. (the hand thingy, imagine it).. always felt proud that both of them are so loving every single minute even if both are 50 plus already. felt pround that i am having a happy family... but now? hmmm.... suddenly gone....

dont feel like staying at home since he's home? even if he's not making a single noise, i still felt that he's so annoying? now i really wish i have 2nd home at kk... at least i dont have to care about anything since my mum said i dont need to think anything since their problem. i dont know if i should tell my brothers about this, can't imagine what will they do after knowing things. since the war is not started yet.. better stay quite for things.... even if the war's started, i dont think i will give anything comment, but to suppport every decision my mum do...

what's going to happen in the family? shite him... SHITE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate him!!!! DONT HE HAVE ANY BRAIN TO THINK WHAT THE HELL IS HE DOING NOW? HOW OLD IS HIM ANYWAY??????? 56 YRS OLD MY FRIEND!!! SHITE!!! CAN'T BELIEVE THE BRAIN STILL HAVEN FINISH CONNECT FROM 0 TO 56 YEARS OLD!!!! THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING MR SHITE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS NOT THE 1ST TIME FOR U TO DO THE WRONG THING... WHY DO YOU NEED TO REPEAT THE WRONG STEPS? THE FAMILY IS NOT WORTH FOR YOU TO BEHAVE YOURSELF??? IS THAT WHAT IN THE MIND??? BULL SHITE!!!! BETTER DONT START TO EXPLAIN BULL SHITE TO ME... TALK TO THE PILLOW IF U REALLY WANT TO....

** 10th to 11th Oct - Survivor + Dad birthday Trip

2008-10-12T21:15:00.010+08:00

*On our way to Pulau Penyu

** 07.10.08

2008-10-07T21:48:00.004+08:00

*I love this guy... Alot! Lao gong lao gong~!!!

*Lao Lao Lao Lao Lao Lao gong!!!

* My babies Dancing in SMC while visiting Nai Nai

*Chocolates From my mum!! I Love Hershey's!!!

*Again!!

* Look at that.. any idea? no kan? all are prawns.. i also dont know why my dad wanna buy so many.... maybe wanna buka pasar udang...

**07.10.08

2008-10-07T17:53:00.001+08:00

Today.... Unemployment rate gone up... at least 0.000001%...
And the only certainty is uncertainty...... shite....

**男人女人

2008-10-06T00:05:00.004+08:00

Valen Hsu - Nan Ren Nu Ren - Valen Hsu Ru Yun

To: Dearest Lim Kiun Pak

爱爱爱爱了几回
也明白其中滋味付出的从来不会等于收回
我却还在等待着谁能出现
伤伤伤伤了几回
也曾经为爱憔悴
爱情里好人总比坏人狼狈
我却还是学不会狠心对谁
男人男人多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼
女人女人我答应做个好人
我答应用我一生来换你的快乐一生
爱爱爱爱了几回
也明白其中滋味
付出的从来不会等于收回
我却还在等待着谁能出现
伤伤伤伤了几回
也曾经为爱憔悴
爱情里好人总比坏人狼狈
我却还是学不会狠心对谁
男人男人多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼
女人女人我答应做个好人
我答应用我一生来换你的快乐一生
男人男人多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼
女人女人我答应做个好人不会再让我(你)心疼
一等再等你就是我等的那个人
男人男人
女人女人
多么希望你是对的人

From: Dearest Mei Hsing

**05.10.08

2008-10-05T23:48:00.002+08:00

yuho... 1st of all, sorry for the inconvenient caused, i restricted the account.. dont feel like letting other non sense ppl to view the blog... hehe...

just came back from my short raya - tawau - trip... quite a trip.. on the trip i figured that fall in love and fail in love is just a words in different. during that time, i felt insecure with the relationship... never thought of things would happened between us.. i really hope there's no intention to cheat because when i found out about the messages i really felt cold and unsecured. really hope to get a flight back to kk at that moment... but things are settled now.. hopefully there wont be 2nd time. because i understand myself well, when things come with the 3rd person in the relationship, no doubt i will be the 1st one who pull myself out from the relationship.. i won allow a single mistake happen in the relationship... i mean when he took the 1st step he would know things will destroy the relationship. if he's the one who dare to take tat step means he wants the relationship to be destroy.. agree? and God knows what are mean to be.. HE knows what's the best for me..

oh ya... curious what happen ka? nvm la... forget about it... as i said, things are settled....

Duh tired... very tired in the tawau trip... feel like i am getting a fever soon... hopefully i will not come because i am waiting for my Pulau Tiga trip this friday!! kekeke... my lao gong and ah zai coming back this thursday... kekeke... oh duh... bad news... my dad is going to be home tomorrow... why dont he just come back with my mum wednesday... bugger....

anyway... tired... nite nite guys!!

Flo Rida In The Ayer

2008-09-30T11:07:00.001+08:00

Flo Rida Lyrics

Flo Rida Music Codes

Music Codes by SongArea.com

Flo Rida In The Ayer Lyrics
Featuring: Will I Am Lyrics

[chorus: Will.I.Am ][X2]
Oh hot damn , this is my jam
Keep me partying till the A.M
Yall don’t understand , make me throw my hands
In the ayer , ay , ayer , ayer , ay , ayer

[Verse 1 : Flo Rida ]
Hey this is my jam
Yall don't understand
I’ll make you understand
What’s pumpin in my CD player (player)
Party all night like yayer (yayer)
Shawty got a hand in the ayer (ayer)
Make me want to take it dayer
Then I go , here I go , here is my song
DJ bring it back come in my zone
I get paid for them couple bones
the next wop until the early morn
i need that crunk when im up in tha club
even my chevy that pull up on em dubs
give me that drop yellow waist like a drug
lil mama hot and she might show me love
o hot damn celebrate to tha A.M
i love it so much it got me sayin

[chorus: Will.I.Am/Fergie ][X2]
Oh hot damn , this is my jam
Keep me partying till the A.M
Yall don’t understand , make me throw my hands
In the ayer , ay , ayer , ayer , ay , ayer

[Verse 2 : Flo Rida ]
Heyy i just might start the wave
like im at a ball game do my thang
hands up high i got money in tha bank
im so fly 747 pain
rock it no stop it how i got my name
baby keep poppin you might get tha fame
walk tha red carpet wont see you the same
i get tha stuntin forget my name
start with me ride with me
shawty represent tha city vibe with me
make me
throw it up ma timid in tha club
go ahead throw it up
gotta wonder how much
to show enough to stare (stare)
im hood so its really unfair (unfair)
shorty go ahead and get bare (bare)
we aint gon treat our city like the mayor (mayor)

[chorus: Will.I.Am/Fergie ][X2]
Oh hot damn , this is my jam
Keep me partying till the A.M
Yall don’t understand , make me throw my hands
In the ayer , ay , ayer , ayer , ay , ayer

(Will.I.Am)
Alright now stop
oooo
put your hands in the ayer
its a stick (a stick up stick up) its a stick up touch tha ceilin baby
Throw my hands in the
Put your hands up (Throw my hands in the)
Put your hands up
Put your, put your hands (Throw my hands in the)
Put your hands up to the sky (to the sky)
Wave em, wave em round and round, side to side (side to side)
In this party shawty gon touch the roof (touch the roof)
And we got em ballers poppin at my proof
So throw your hands in the ayer (ayer)
Touch the ceilin baby
Fill it, fill it baby
Throw your hands up

[chorus: Fergie ][X2]
Oh hot damn , this is my jam
Keep me partying till the A.M
Yall don’t understand , make me throw my hands
In the ayer , ay , ayer , ayer , ay , ayer
(Throw your hands up)

** 22.09.08

2008-09-22T10:54:00.003+08:00

yes yes yes!!! 8.5 more days then i see my lao gong already... gosh... i miss him so much... feel like it's been ages i didnt get the chance to squeeze his face... i miss it alot... MISS YOU LAO GONG!!!!! kekeke... about the preview blog.. things are getting better... i told him what i tot of and we settle things up... i mean the emo thingy reduced ALOT after i tell him what's on the mind... hehehehehe....

oh ya... my mum get promoted few weeks ago and she's now at labuan. and my dad will be officially pension on the 10 oct. cut the story short, hopefully my dad will go labuan more often to accompany my mum la... quite worried about her because we dont have any relatives in labuan and paliss palis... if anything happend and my mum needs help, i also dont know who to find... duh... oh ya... my dearest brother and lao gong will be coming back to kk for my dad's birthday... the whole family will go for a family trip to Pulau Tiga for a night stay... kekek... guys, wait for the photo la k... for sure i will upload the photos...

me love coming back this wednesday!!!

hehehe... i got my holiday plan already... this is a short semester for me and the classes will be end on the early november. after my final, me, my parents, my lao gong and my uncle will fly to kl to attend my diploma graduation... after that i'll be going to labuan till the end of november... and then!! deng deng deng deng!!! i'll be spending the whole december in tawau with my lao gong!!!! kekekekekeekeke....... ba ok la... i wanna go watch tv dy.... got class again at 1pm later... sienz... tonite got tuition somemore.... sienzzzzzz.... keke... bubye!!!!

My time table for this short semester...

2008-09-22T10:53:00.000+08:00

** Rules for falling in love?

2008-09-09T17:50:00.011+08:00

it's been awhile i didnt update my blog dy ya... sorry... dont really have the mood to write on anything recently... look at the recent post... i'd rather post some pictures to keep u guys "entertain" instead of writing some bull shite out...

erm.... how should i start out with things.... ok... i have a quite long holiday trip to Tawau during my semester break... well i would say i enjoyed everything.. spending time with the love one, all the liaoing sessions, the seafood eating session.... and i would like to say thank you to pak's mother's mooncake... nice mooncake... never tasted a wine mooncake before... guys, you should try the mooncake if u have the chance to do so, hm... dont know how to describe it, anyway... new taste jak la... keke...

another thing happening to me now is... duh... i get so emotional nowadays... why? i dont really know... get so sensitive with things. i mean like it's ok for me when i dont start to think, or i should say nothing reminds me to think about the NON SENSE things. but when i starts thinking the issues, i will get so emotional and really need things to clam down myself to avoid things to become bad.... i mean like if i dont do the claming down thingy i might start a fight and end up there's no point in fighting when there's actually noting happen? right?

i've been thinking what would be the reason for me to get so emo recently.. i mean like... yes... emo is not something new for me.. but.. i dont really like this emo thingy to bother me when i really want to get my bud up to put more and more effort in my studies and my tuition students... i mean like, there's lot of things for me to do and i really dont want this emo thingy to get control over me.... one very big reason i found out is i think i am too depending on him... yes yes yes... i am... it's not like i am depending him on the financial way or what... hmm... i should say i might be too get used to it with the life that when we 1st start... like we'll look for each other like after an hour.. i dont know what happened now.. might be he start to get real busy.. i mean REAL busy with the work and i am the one who still standing still at the starting point... chehh... this sounds like i am not improving myself... i dont mean like i am just standing... i mean like i will still continue doing my things but the only thing is, i will wait for the calls or msgs while i am doing my things and trust me.. i HATE this kind of feeling... hate waiting for something that you'll never know when will things happen.... i mean like guys who know my story from the back will know how much i dont like this simple word.. WAIT...

but hey... wake up wake up... where's the rational me? ok... i dont mean like this is anyone's fault... my fault... i mean like i know how a relationship goes as the time goes by... like how the girlfriends have shared, can't expect things will be remain like before... duh... i hate myself for thinking this kind of things.... but i really dont know how to overcome this kind of feelings... maybe i should accept wat lee ling told me... and i guess that's the rule in the game of love... now, i should get used to it with this kind of life... and i think i should really get myself to real busy so i would have not much time to think about us? i seriously dont like to become the annoying kind... ego problem.. big ego problem... well, i dont mean anything by posting this blog... it's just something i wanted to write out and remind myself i need to overcome this emo thingy and control myself back...

** Nice 名言 thingy...

2008-09-08T23:44:00.002+08:00

Copied from lee ling's blog.... well it's actually a nice and meaningful 名言... enjoy and agree with it!!

1. 我以為小鳥飛不過滄海，是以為小鳥沒有飛過滄海的勇氣，十年以後我才發現，不是小鳥飛不過去，而是滄海的那一頭，早已沒有了等待。
2. 你走的那天，我決定不掉淚，迎著風撐著眼簾用力不眨眼。
3. 多謝你的絕情，讓我學會死心……
4. 木頭對火說：“抱我！”火擁抱了木頭，木頭微笑著化為灰燼！火哭了！淚水熄滅了自己……當木頭愛上烈火，注定會被燒傷。
5. 當眼淚流下來，才知道，分開也是另一種明白。
6. 我真的愛你，閉上眼，以為我能忘記，但流下的眼淚，卻沒有騙到自己……
7. 回家的路上我哭了，眼淚再一次崩潰了。無能為力這樣走著，再也不敢驕傲奢求了。我還能夠說些甚麼，我還能夠做些甚麼？我好希望你會聽見，因為愛你我讓你走了……
8. 是我的終究是我的，我終歸是你的一個過客，你始終不愛我，注定我和你就是什麼都不會發生，注定，注定只是注定，不管我怎麼跨越、不管我怎麼想靠近你，你還是會離開我的，我好想你，好想好想你，好想好想見你……
9. 分手後不可以做朋友，因為彼此傷害過；不可以做敵人，因為彼此深愛過。所以我們變成了最熟悉的陌生人。
10. 我能感覺到你的心痛，你有你說不出的無奈……但是你做出一副無所謂的樣子，你越是這樣我就越難受。
11. 有時，愛也是種傷害。殘忍的人，選擇傷害別人；善良的人，選擇傷害自己。
12. 你走了，帶著我全部的愛走了，只是一句分手。我忍著眼淚看著你的背影，好想最後再抱你一次，好想再對你說一次“我愛你”。
13. 魚上鈎了，那是因為魚愛上了漁夫，它願用生命來博漁夫一笑……
14. 歲月就象一條河，左岸是無法忘卻的回憶，右岸是值得把握的青春年華，中間飛快流淌的，是年輕隱隱的傷感。世間有許多美好的東西，但真正屬於自己的卻並不多。看庭前花開花落，榮辱不驚，望天上雲卷雲舒，去留無意。在這個紛繞的世俗世界裡，能夠學會用一顆平常的心去對待周圍的一切，也是一種境界。
15. 我們的生活有太多無奈，我們無法改變，也無力去改變，更糟的是，我們失去了改變的想法。
16. 人生最遺憾的，莫過於，輕易地放棄了不該放棄的，固執地，堅持了不該堅持的……
17. 有些失去是注定的，有些緣分是永遠不會有結果的。愛一個人不一定會擁有，擁有一個人就一定要好好去愛她。
18. 如果，不幸福，如果，不快樂，那就放手吧；如果，捨不得、放不下，那就痛苦吧。
19. 人生短短幾十年，不要給自己留下了什麼遺憾，想笑就笑，想哭就哭，該愛的時候就去愛，無謂壓抑自己。人生的苦悶有二，一是欲望沒有被滿足，二是它得到了滿足。
20. 所謂花心，就是有了愛情和面包，還想吃蛋糕的心情；所謂外遇，就是潛出圍城，跌入陷阱；所謂浪漫，就是幫老婆買包心菜時，還會順手帶回一支玫瑰花；所謂廚房，就是結婚時紅地毯通向的正前方。
21. 這個世界就這麼不完美，你想得到些什麼就不得不失去些什麼。
22. 戀愛，在感情上，當你想征服對方的時候，實際上已經在一定程度上被對方征服了。首先是對方對你的吸引，然後才是你征服對方的欲望。
23. 我放下了尊嚴，放下了個性，放下了固執，都只是因為放不下你。
24. 如果愛上，就不要輕易放過機會。莽撞，可能使你後悔一陣子；怯懦，卻可能使你後悔一輩子。
25. 沒有經歷過愛情的人生是不完整的，沒有經歷過痛苦的愛情是不深刻的。愛情使人生豐富，痛苦使愛情升華。

* My Tifiu Trip

2008-09-03T16:22:00.005+08:00

* if you can see it clearly, i bite his hand because of his CHI NGIness... keke

* sorry love... ops... kekek

*with our cow t shirt... huhuhu...

*Lobster

Sony 660? Casio s10 or Canon s5is?

2008-09-03T16:12:00.004+08:00

Sony DVD Handycam DCR DVD 610

Canon Powershot s5is

Casio S10

**05.08.08

2008-08-07T00:43:00.002+08:00

**牛仔 - 眼睛敏感

2008-07-31T17:23:00.006+08:00

** 牛仔.....

2008-07-28T23:46:00.001+08:00

** Uber gan jiong for tomorrow...

2008-07-23T23:39:00.002+08:00

1.Shortest relationship?

- months...

2. Last gift you received?

- my ring from my sayang

3. Ever dropped a cell phone?

- always! keke

4. Last food you ate?

- hmmm... dont even know what is that... my bro's gf made it... something like those bird nest...

5. Last club you go to?

- hmm... cant even recall... shen i think...

6. Last drink?

- green tea

7. One favorite song?

- xing fu lian ren.... hehe

8. Where do you live?

- my house

9. Last wedding you attended:

- erm.... wen wen's wedding i think...

10. Last time you saw your friend?

- few hours ago...

11. Where is your favorite place to eat with friends?

- Yoyo... a place convenient for us to gather

12. Can you cook?

- (have to be confident for my own cooking) YEs i can... keke
.

13. Last time you cried?

- hmm.... maybe he will remember when did i cried.. can't recall dy...

14. Why?

- ah.. this u have to ask the person who made me cry...

15. Hate most about yourself?

- i'm happy to be me... :)

16. Can you sing?

- no

17. Do you drink?

- i always ensure myself drink enough plain water per day... wahaha....

18. Pancakes or French toast?

- french toast will do

19. Do you like coffee?

- yes when i really can't open my eye during the lecture...

20. Last person who sends you a message?

- wen wen

21. What was the last text message you received?

- bugger cousin ask me to kirim salam my aunt if i see her tomorrow night...

22. Can you play pool?

- no... my dearest uncle told me girl looks rude to play pool... i do curi curi go learn also la... but can't even hit a hole.. keke

23. Can you swim?

- erm... yes i think? at least better than those who only know diving and dont know how to swim... keke

24. Favorite flavor of ice cream?

- i love ice cream... as long as it's not that sweet...

25. What time did you wake up this morning?

- 8.45am

26. What are you doing this week?

- assignment, test, assignment... tomorrow is my big day... if airasia is good to me, it will be my syg's parent day... keke... gan jiong...

27. Are you smiling??

-ya... because i am thinking what would the situation be tomorrow...
.

28. Do you miss someone right now?

- ALWays!!

29. Do you have a crush?

- what do you think?

30. Do you have a sister?

- tak de... i am the only girl in the house!! yuhoooo.... kena manja till hangus... keke...

31. Who is your closest cousin’s name?

- hmm.... too many and dont know if i can finish typing them one by one...

32. What were you doing 10 minutes ago?

- reading the past blog i posted..

33. If you were a color, what would you be?

- how can u imagine what color would you be? not making any sense...

34. if you could go anywhere right now, where?

- go tawau..

35. Food you're craving for right this minute?

- nothing...

36. Name a person who's name starts with the letter "j"?

- me... Jennifer Jacqueleen...

37. Where's the best place to eat ice cream?

- anywhere with the good environment....

38. Radio station you frequently listen to?

- Hitz FM

39. Where do you usually hang out?

- Yoyo with the girls....

40. If you were to change careers, what would you want it to be?

- finish the study as soon as i can...

41. What are you going to do tomorrow?

- if airasia treat me well, it will be a BIG day for me and my syg... wish me luck....

42. Favorite day?

- any holidayszzzz

43. Are you easy to get along with?

- yes...

44. What movie do you want to see right now?

- batman!!

45. Whose birthday is coming up?

- alicia the 38...

46. How many kids do you want?

- not more than 3

47. Where do you usually watch movies?

- my room...

48. Name one person which starts with the letter "m"?

- mei hsing?

49. Favorite thing that you have now?

- my happiness?

50. Where will be your next holiday?

- TAWAU~!!!!!!

** Sayang... You wait ar... 20 May 2010...

2008-07-20T22:51:00.001+08:00

** Andox n Xiao Hei

2008-07-20T21:50:00.010+08:00

It's really been awhile i didn't go visit Andy's official website (the forum where he actually write something when he's free - http://forum.awc618.com/forumdisplay.php?f=1) can't believe there's new character come out in his life... he call this two dolls his "Baby".. he's the mum... the white (xiao bai? keke) cow is the elder brother, the black cow is the youngest.

http://forum.awc618.com/showthread.php?t=4184 (Xiao Hei 06.10.07)

http://forum.awc618.com/showthread.php?t=3139 (Andox Born 13.05.07)

-You'll find out how this two Cowy come out from the two forum above

**16.07.08

2008-07-16T21:15:00.003+08:00

*Newest picture... sprain my leg... dont ask me how.. i didnt even know how it sprained... keke

*GC singing competition on the 17th.. mong si lo kan sayang? pity....

*the assignments that could kill me...

*love asked me how come Jedai so big jor... Duh... here's the answer, because he uber like to eat and he eat rice and drink milk everyday... this answer ok mou? keke

*i cooked this soup.... some call this ABC...

*the monkey enjoyed it... kekeke

*yummy....

** Bugger AirAsia

2008-07-10T01:03:00.000+08:00

1. Where is your cell phone?

~ beside my laptop

2. Your girlfriend/boyfriend/hubby

~ sigh... working far away from me... nvm.. seeing him tomorrow.

3. Your hair?

~ still here with me...

4. Where is your father?

~ outstation at Keningau

5. What's the thing you hate the most?

~ Kucing... yuck...

6. Your favorite thing to do?

~ talking with my syg...

7. Your dream last night?

~ hate to remember dream anyway

8. Your favorite drink?

~ plain water will do

9. Your dream guy/girl?

~ the one i in love so much with

10. The room you’re in?

~ my room

12. Who is your crush?

~ Mr Park (always)

14. Who did you last hang out with?

~ lee ling... rushing for the assignment

15. What aren’t you good at?

~ erm.... good question...

16. Muffins?

~ yuck..

17. your wish list in your life?

~ finish up the study as soon as i can and start my new journey...

19. The last thing you did?

~ talking with me love

20. What are you wearin

` the 28th annual TTSS sport meet tee.

22. Your pet?

~ kopi zai

23. Your computer?

~ in front of me?

24. Your life?

~ Great

25. Your mood?

~ piss off with Air Asia

26. Missing?

~ Lim Kiun Pak

27. What are you thinking about right now?

~ can i actually sue AirAsia?

28. Your friends?

~ gorgeous

29. Your family?

~ love them alot

30. Your love life?

~ i'm the happiest women in the world..

31. Your relationship status?

~ in the relationship with someone worth

32. Your favorite color(s)?

~ black

33. When is the last time you laughed?

~ minutes ago

34. Last time you cried?

~ dont bother to remember that...

35. School?

~ college

36. what the things that makes you really really mad?

~ tiang... why the flight need to be retimed? now i need to extend 2 more hours to see my syg... bugar....

37. What's on your mind now?

~ when will my syg finish his work...

38. if you can changte one thing in the past what would it be?

~ I dont want to change anything..

39. 5 yrs from now, what would you think you'll be doing?

~ living happily in tifiu... wahahhaha...

40. Would you change anything in life now?

~ No thanks.... Everything's perfect enough...

** Hao Yee 3 yrs old bday in China...

2008-07-08T10:25:00.004+08:00

*23.12.08 (before he go back to China)
Looks small kan? i have to mention, it's not that i'm big, it's just this monkey is underweight

* oh shite... i miss this naughty monkey...

*can't wait to see him again... i wonder when will it be...

* RE: a "friends blog"

2008-07-08T00:35:00.001+08:00

I just finished read a friend's blog which i think he seldom come to visit my blog since a friend of mine's a very very busy man nowadays. Surprisingly there's a blog writing about me (i suppose it should be me la.. if i didnt perasan.. hehe... it's me ba kan? keke...) Anyway, just want to let you know that i do keep on track on ur blog since both of us are not so free to chat via Msn. If you really check on the blog there's actually updates for you... like i'm the public relation in my club.. oh ya.. i dont think i will join the INTIMA la... felt like i am too SENIOR to join the INTIMA dy... all the INTIMA members are like so junior for me... keke... but dont worry... i think my club is good enough for me dy, at least i think my club is more famous than the INTIMA. lagi active in college.

Yaya.... i found my "Jack Ko". Much much more happier than before... hehe... And i'll keep your words with me... dont worry ya... hehe.... and u better keep ur words ya... keep things update with the blog....

I'm going to Tawau again on the Thursday... celebrating my syg bday! hehe! (okok... dont worry... i will make sure i'm done with my studies before i go)

Ba k la... wanna continue on my assignment 1st... for you information, this is my 4th sem. 5 more sems to go. Take Care S

** Officially Missing You...

2008-07-06T21:07:00.002+08:00

** Our 1st Semporna Trip

2008-07-01T16:25:00.004+08:00

*It's a VERY VERY SCARE fish!!

*a very clear water..

*林君白讲是跳海的地方

*拖船有看过吗？

*水晶虾

*Ketam wor....

*树仔菜

*炸sotong & 指甲螺

** Sweet sweettt things

2008-07-01T00:28:00.008+08:00

* 小白乖，不要乱乱过来吓我啊

*cowieeeee

*My syg de fish

*cow

*Our Cow Carpet

*Our Bed

*Our Photo Frame

*Our Dustbin

** 1 more day to go...

2008-06-24T21:24:00.003+08:00

*Hao hao sit... but hao kui sit... kan syg? hehe

*Another art work during the lecturer...

** Neyo - Because of you

2008-06-24T01:40:00.006+08:00

*Elaine... dont kill me for the tittle... i always define my survey title by seeing what am i listening now... wahahhahahaha..... you're so lucky....

1.What's so good about the

person you like?

:: hm... indescribable

2.So where's your mum?

:: sleeping in her room with her husband....

3.Do you drive yet?

:: Yeap..

4.How do you feel about racism?

:: Shouldnt have happened..

5.Who's the sexiest person alive?

:: who?

6.Who was the last person you talked

to on MSN or YM?

:: syg n chelsy

7.Name a song that reminds you of old

memories?

:: Destiny... Jim brickman

8.Do you like the color gray?

:: fine for me...

9.Is there someone you really

can't stop thinking about?

:: Yeah.. :)

10.Look outside, how's the weather

outside?

:: cold like inside...

11.Are you jealous of anyone right

now?

:: i dont think so...

12.Did you ever think someone

didn't like you, but came find

out they really did once it was to

late?

:: Someone told me that's the definition of destiny... and i think it would happen to everyone... Conclusion - please dont take someone for granted.

13.Last time you didn't tell the

truth?

:: last saturday because i really dont wish to go back to Alicia's house for moginum...

14.Name something great that happened

today.

:: nothing special happen as usual...

15.Do you regret doing something

today?

:: For eating..?

16.When you think of the rainbow,

what color pops in your head?

:: blue, red, yellow, blar... didnt even remember wat's the color inside the rainbow

17.Do you believe in aliens?

:: no..

18.Where would you like to be?

:: somewhere peaceful is good enough for me...

19.What is the worst thing your

parents could do to you?

::Stop giving me pocket money?

20.Have you been happy recently?

:: yup yup..

21.Do you like receiving balloons on

your birthday?

:: hmm... never happened to me yet... might be a good idea with a blasted birthday party with lots of balloons like my cousin's wedding party... like to see the kids having fun in a party... it cheer up the situation alotttzzzz.... especially for all my monkey nephews and nieces...

22.Maths, English, Science or Social

Studies?

:: math n english

23.What are you currently

listening to?

:: 陈小春 - 我不是伟人

24.Do you have Limewire?

:: ya

25.Is lying ever acceptable?

:: hate it... ALOT....

26.What was the last movie you

watched?

:: Incredible hulk

27.Name someone who has turned your

life around at some point?

:: Mei Hsing

28.How's your heart lately?

:: i'll let you know when i get the answer! hahahaha.... no la... happy... lot happier than before...

29.The person you dislike gets killed

by a train, how do you react?

:: shite... i dont even know my curse can really came true... but i seriously dont mean it to happen...

30.Who is always on your mind no

matter what?

:: Park

31.Was today a good day?

:: I think so... :)

32.Name a class that you really

dislike?

:: Anything with theory.... hate writing... why can't everything to be calculation anyway?

33.Do you collect anything?

:: used to be my powerpuff collection.... hmm... the powerpuff thingy still going on i think because my bro just bought me some of the ppg's story book... duh.... Will i ever become a grown up for my family? still their baby girl for the moment i think.... gaga.. sorry love... here comes the winner again!!

34. Who is the biggest gossiper you

know?

:: Chelsy!!! wahahahhahaha

35.Last time you got stopped by a cop

or pulled over?

:: not yet... palis palis...

36.Have you ever drank your soda from

a straw?

:: duh... i pronounce you the question of the day...

37.What does your last text message

say?

:: "good night syg. sleep ar. miss u.." Miss you too...

38.Do you like hot sauce?

:: Alot...

39.Last time you took a shower?

:: Few hours ago..

40.Do you need to do laundry?

:: Not really...

41.are u someone's best friend?

:: definitely

* Rest In Peace my baby towel

2008-06-22T18:48:00.003+08:00

Does these towel looks familiar? Duh... you're right elaine!!!! It's my towel buruk that u always make fun... sigh... it's my towel since i pop out from my mum's tummy.... It has now become my mum's table towel because of my senka new maid. She thrown my towel into the dustbin yesterday... and my mum decided not to give it back to me....

Elaineee.... remember how u remind me not to bring it to tawau and scare people away??!! No more dy lo.... I bet my mum dare not to tell me at the first place when she saw the towel is in the dustbin.. imagine that, the towel that her baby daughter always sleep with for the 22 years was in the dustbin with all the rubbish, how can she have the courage to tell her?

But when i question her why the towel become the table towel, all she did is laugh out real, i mean REAL, loud with her son.

Sigh... luckily i still got my two baby towel with me... i'm going to make sure two of them wont be tear into pieces....

* 22.06.08

2008-06-22T17:49:00.005+08:00

*His supper

*our dustbin

*our bedsheet

*i like this pic (taken infront of my sayang.. keke...)

*my new shoe

*打你的头!!

*Chelsy a.k.a Monkey a.k.a Birthday Girl

*On her bday

*for anyone who curious how's kopi zai doing.... She gain her weight.... AGAIN! haha

*In class activity

*Suppose to be a frog.. Does it looks like one love? wahaha

** Girft frm the Boss

2008-06-21T11:00:00.004+08:00

For anyone who know Jason and Winnie.. their new baby boy is born!! finally a baby boy, if my aunt know baby boy is born mesti she happy... if i'm not mistaken my aunt gave him a name before she passed away. Baby joy got a brother already.... Didnt have a chance to meet the baby boy yet because Winnie was delivered in Keningau Hospital.

oh ya... there's an election of committee few weeks ago in the Relax and Recreation club, and me and buddy voted to be the Public Relation of the club. PEACE!!! at least i know i am not left behind with my goal.. uina.... i got my goal ni kawangs... kekeke....

5 more days and i can meet up with my sayang and the two dearest bitches. Cant help but wait.... ba k la... wanna play dinner dash dy.. bye

** Nice song... Dedicated to my sayang

2008-06-19T16:54:00.002+08:00

All these precious moments,wif u by my side
Muz be a gift frm heaven,tat's holdin me al nite
I dunnoe hw i found u,i'm thankful tat i've
Nw tat i hav a love so true,2 hold,2 keep,2 share

(chorus)
In my heart i can no longer hold inside
Al of the love i used 2 hide
I'll always b wif u until the veri end
In tis world ther's no place i'd rather be
U're my life,my soul,my girl
N through it al i noe,u've come 2 see tat u're the 1 til the end

Al my friends ard me say u'll be gone 2 soon
Baby i'm gonna mak them see,we've found our way bck home

(chorus)
In my heart i can no longer hold inside
Al of the love i used 2 hide
I'll always b wif u until the veri end
In tis world ther's no place i'd rather be
U're my life,my soul,my girl
N through it al i noe,u've come 2 see tat u're the 1 til the end

Till The End - I Love my baby

** Latest update.

2008-06-19T15:35:00.003+08:00

okay okay... not that my hand's broken or what, it's just that i dont feel like expressing what am i thinking now... hate to noted what am i thinkin because i really dont hope things going to happen. Wa.... it's really been awhile i didnt update my blog ya... sorry kawangss... keke... but i know you guys got my latest update also...

I always wanted a new life after i've gone through SO much things in the past. and i made it.. i been telling Alicia i wan to find my own 'Jack Ko' (it's a character in the drama we watched few weeks ago). In the drama, Jack Ko is actually a very gentlemen guy, he take of of all his friends, he got the look, he'd take good care of his loved one, he's willing to sacrifice for his love one.... doi.... i've been asking people around me help me to find my Jack Ko. Anddddddd....Eventually, i found him myself.

I went to tifiu with reynie at the early May, and as usually, went to liao and liao and liao with the God Father. nothing much you can do in tawau actually, oh ya... i asked hanif to come out when i am in tawau but he didnt even answer my phone. i mean like what would i lose up if u doesnt show up? at least i know i tried my best to do what should i do and i know i dont feel regret for the thing i do then ok dy la kan? agree baby? agree love? okok... sorry for the interruption, and then, i meet my sayang there.... kekeke......

Cut off to short, we started with chatting in msn and so on, and at the end of May i went to tawau to meet him up. Fast oh kan, aiya i dont know la... i mean like as long as i am happy with myself now, it's ok ba kan? and i felt like i am so happy with him. he made me feel like i am the happiest women in this world. kekekekekekekekeekekekekeke.... i dont know how to express that kind of feelings but...... ah..... anyway, I AM DAMN HAPPY WITH THINGS NOW LA.... keke... anyway, i am going to tawau again...because ah lun getting married on the 27th 7 days to go... hmmm or should i say 6 days to go...

You ( ya i mean you) know how i dont like to be involved in the relationship when the EX is still existing in his life kan? i also dont know how to express la... this are running in a complicated way, and i dont really feel like expressing it also.... so just let it be 1st la... hopefully nothing with happen between us la....

Okay, put a full stop in things with me and park 1st. now let's take collin inside the story... you know collin treat me like his real sister dy kan, damn care about me. and when he knew that i got into a relationship already, he kinda come out with the real brother attitude. i dont think he got a good feeling with pak becasue he keep like saying by looking at pak's picture he can tell that pak is not a good guy and blar blar blar.... aidui..... wat a real brother attitude.... kekekeke... happy also la... because i know many ppl care about me... and one more thing... i got faith in pak also... oh ya... and rezan also.... keep remind pak to treat me well, and he got a new nick name already "training couch"... training what? wahahaha... training pak in drinking... he takut pak cannot handle situation when he comes to kk to meet up with collin them. wakakaka.... funny tul la these guys... but anyway!!! thanks for the caring bro!!! :)

Ya ya... i know you bitches will punch him down also if he doesn't treat me well.. dont worry babiessssss.... he's treating me damn well...... hehehehehehehehehehe.... elaine.... please dont use a car to bang me and pak when u sees us by the roadside ya.... kekeke..... damn Super Duper Uber Glue... happy juga.... i'll be seeing you guys sooooonnnn!!!! Miss you!!! Muakssss!!!!

Oh ya... lupa... shite.... i keep having nightmare oh this few days.... malas i!!!! apa apa jenis also got.... got fight with pak la... got kena marah by pak la... the worse one come out last nite... my dad having affair and pak wants to break up with me? shite.... izzit i am too phobia with the existing of his ex? shiteeeee.......

huhuhu... Happy....

2008-05-23T20:28:00.002+08:00

I dont know how long will this relationship last, but i really hope it will never ends...
Thanks pak, i felt that i am the happiest women in this world...
i know you care and worry about me. Dont worry, i will take good care myself when you're not around...

Happy to have him in my life...

2008-05-22T20:15:00.002+08:00

* Park @ Lim Kiun Pak

你很爱她

2008-05-08T11:30:00.000+08:00

Nothing much to talk about.... this song can describe everything...

当你决定
你要离开我
我没有说什么
就当作你自由
有好几次
我都想忘了
苦酒也没有用
就当作是寂寞
因为我能明白
她的温柔
对你是种解脱
就坦白告诉我
谁是你的最爱
其实你很爱她

对我的惩罚
说你没有想她
是可怜我吧
我已没有借口
只能放手
不敢奢求
你说爱我
她很温柔吗
其实你很想她
就说出口吧
我也不想多说
捂住耳朵
不想再次听到� �说
你很爱她
hoo...ha

** RIP Aunt Grace

2008-04-27T16:51:00.003+08:00

it's been a while i didnt upload my blog dy kan... busy for drinking session and study... and just finished my final exam, having my short short short semester break now

15th april, 5pm- doing revision for the 2nd paper on 16th, my mum suddenly said my aunt went to emergency room.
9pm - aunt admitted to female ward because of difficult in breathing. went to visit her at the ward, she looks so suffer.

16th april, 7pm- finished my last paper and went to makan with classmate. after makan and mandi, i went to hospital and visit my aunt. i still remember the scene, holding her hand
looking at the heart beat machine, within 20 mints, more than 10 times her heart beat turns to 0.
11pm plus - my beloved aunt passed away peacefully.

My late beloved aunt is my godmother while i get blessed when i am 12 yrs old. Cant explain how close am i with her. i miss her lots.

** sandi....

2008-04-08T00:46:00.006+08:00

* i love this picture

*rainbow

what should i say? i suppose to be happy after the bday party... thanks for everyone who attended the party.. hey, alson pop up tu... wahahhaa.....

lots of things happened this few days.. before this bday party i actually felt much more better, felt that finally i can climb out from the high wall and stand up myself.. but suddenly all of those old feelings pop up from the old old memories... or i should say things that had been hidden inside the ocean deep in the heart suddenly came back... baby, remember how zombie am i when i am having the ai mei thingy with willi? all those feelings pop up again... he's treating me very well, but i know it's just because i am the bday girl. i dont like this kind of feelings. everyone in the world tot me and him finally got the chance to be together, but only me and him know that it is so impossible for us to be together. really tired with this kind of feeelings. he's too complicated for me, why am i always need to fall for those MPG? what's mpg? check back the previous posts. how can i describe the relationship with him? the normal line for a relationship should be like this... peng you -- ai mei -- then pakto... but ppl always wont stay long in the ai mei stage... both of us stayed too long at that stage, we'll only stop at that stage and wont go further on.

destiny... what's destiny actually? willi told me destiny is for those people that have passed through some stages and wont be able to be together. what do you think?

lots of things happened on the bday party. i was dead drunk sampai can't walk into the house. stayed in willi's car for hours. and i suddenly woke up and scold willi ( i can't really remember why and what did i scolded him) The next day, i called him and asked him what did i said but he dont want to tell me. he said that i talked something hurtful to him and made him can't get into sleep.

i went to see monkey on the sunday morning with willi, aweng and alicia. alicia said must make me happy on that day... willi dont want to go to at 1st.. i know it's because of my bday, gei mien ma... felt like he was forced to go to the zoo with me... two yrs dy lur... two years ago he promised to bring me go to see monkeys but he never take any action. i should be happy but i felt like he was forced to go with me on the sunday.... he know he would be scold by alicia if he refuse to go... hate to involve the 3rd party in this kind of situation... i dont like the 3rd party to settle the things for me... things would be more complicated tu....

on the other hand, idris sms me on saturday evening... i totally can't recognize his number, called love and ask her to check is that 019 his number lagi tu... he said sorry for things he had done in the past and we had chit chat for awhile.

mirror.... baby... i feel emo o now.. uber emo... i suppose to go to bed at 8pm but it is 1am already now.... feel like crying but i dont know why.... why? cant help me rearrange those feelings inside ka? feel so confuse but i dont know what am i feeling confuse....

i'm listening to luther vandross's I'd rather... i tot this song suppose to be idris's song... but why i feel like it's actually willi's song? all this while, did i do something wrong? did i made the wrong decision few months ago?

mirror, i know something bad happened to you... if u need someone to talk, sms me and we talk in the skype ok? miss you pls take care...

* 07.04.08

2008-04-07T20:54:00.007+08:00

*on my bday party

* love my anak... but too manja dy

*finally!!!!

* the result of March!! EVA FAM!!!

* uppered wira pernah see mou?

* Choy Ling

** Expectation?

2008-04-01T20:49:00.002+08:00

it's been awhile i didnt update my blog dy kan... so tired for the college stuff... presentation.. assignment... memang suda zombie.. the assigment and the presentation make me lagi jadi zombie..

bday coming this sunday... will throw a party on saturday.. i wonder what do people expect for on their bday.. maybe when their still a kids, many things la kan... presentSsSs... but for me.. i also dunno.. i just hope everyone gets happy and happy... didn't expect for anything... or i should say gone through so many things, i dont even dare to expect anything... even from anyone.. because anything can change in a minute...

went to soho with the monkeys last nite... (oh ya.. elaine... Jamz increase their price, no body wanna go there dy.. they dun even have happy hour.. trus everyone changed to soho.. now Jamz tutup kedai.. "renovation" konon... even sydney also jobless..) u know when u're bit tipsy then u dare to talk alot? and u will be memory lost the next day? gosh!! My God..!!! i was so tipsy and i dont even remember what did i talked to kdayc... i told him i like him in prosa klasik!! bugger...!!! feel like killing myself. and kdayc told alicia (the CNN) and alicia told everyone this evening...
Gosh.. i really felt malu la.. and i hate kdayc for doing that... they put a bet on me because i told them i wont talk to kdayc from now till my bday... but lastly the bet cancel dy... but i am actually betting with myself... i should let him know what he can do and what he cannot do for things between us... shite...

and i actually invited kira on my bday... wait for my update jak la k... i just hope i wont be drunk on my bday nite... but everyone's telling me "meihsing... u're going to get drunk by that time... trust me!!" even collin.... duh...

oh by the way... baby!! collin ambil hati u didnt reply his msg when he sms u said thanks for the jed... sedih betulll!!!!!!!!!!!!! tell u somehting also la k... collin going after ur anak now... chelsy... kekekekekekewahahahhahahahahahahahahah1!!!!!!!!!

** Destiny.

2008-03-23T13:58:00.001+08:00

what if i never knew
what if i never found you
i never had
this feeling in my heart

how did this come to be
i dont know how you found me
but from the moment i saw you
deep inside my heart i knew

baby your my destiny
you and i were meant to be
with all my heart and soul
ill give my love to have and hold
and as far as i can see
you were always meant to be
my destiny

i wanted someone like you
someone that i could hold on to
and give my love until the end
of time

but forever was just a word (just a word)
something id only heard about
but now youre always there for me
when you say forever i believe

baby your my destiny
you and i were meant to be
with all my heart and soul
ill give my love to have and hold
and as far as i can see
you were always meant to be
my destiny

maybe all we need
is just a little faith
cuz baby i believe
that love will find a way

baby your my destiny
you and i were meant to be
with all my heart and soul
ill give my love to have and hold
and as far as i can see
from now until eternity
you were always meant to be

my destiny

**What is destiny anyway? anyone?

** What willl you do if.....

2008-03-22T23:10:00.003+08:00

Just back from my liaoing session from 1.30pm till now.. (10.30pm).... what will you do if u things come between ur fren and the one u care...?? ah qing.. [for those who know who's ah qing and ah vun] they keep kacau chelsy to get my intention just now... and kday keep looking at me...
instand of give a ** what will kday think, i go and help chelsy. i go near ah vun and ah qing and kday keep look at me. Once i go near kday, ah qing will go near chelsy while my cousin chung chung is around... duh.... u might get blur by seeing what am i trying to say here... but... i know at least my mirror and stupid love will understand what am trying to say here....

kday kday.... what should i explain? i hate to explain it to you because i hope u will understand me... and u are the only one who can save me and you didnt do it thought..... sigh....

something scary happened just now and i was so scared and someone pop up from my mind... but sigh... he's not around.... sadly when he arrived.... he didn't even show he care.....

***baby!!! ur daughter ask me to let you that she got her driving license already!! wahahahahahahahahahaha

** 12.03.08

2008-03-12T01:00:00.002+08:00

hey there, writting my early bird blog again. like always, dont feel sleepy yet and... the brain keep on functioning... i really dont understand this brain, why can't i fully utilized my brain power with the studies. instead of go think those stupid bloody shite, why dont use the power to study? hairanku...

Just as i THOUGHT i moved on in everything, few days later, this kind of bloody moody mode turned on again... ya... AGAIN... i thought "finally i can sing with chris daughtry "i got over you!!!!" i thought la k... bugger....

eh, there's a very funny classmate of mine called choy ling, damn funny... she has a very deep down voice and when she's talking with the other people, she dont feel comfortable to look at the person at the eye level. she always look at the floor when she talks. keke... funny thing about this classmate is, she can look at the text book and talk to herself, and laugh!! wahahhaha.... i like this classmate... she really made me feel curious about her, feel like wanna go be friend with her and find out what makes her act like this way... keke.... i will update you when there's anything new about her k? i'm seriously not making fun of her... i just care about her...

ba... i got class ni tomorrow 8am... i better go to sleep 1st la... (if i can)
oh... Btw, i think i did well in my test paper this afternoon.... i think la...

** Colbie Caillat - Realize

2008-03-11T19:42:00.001+08:00

V1: Take time to realize,
That your warmth is
Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you

C: If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
and will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder if
we missed out on each other now.

V2: Take time to realize
Oh-oh I'm on your side
didn't I, didn't I tell you.
Take time to realize
This all can pass you by
Didn't I tell you

But I can't spell it out for you,
no it's never gonna be that simple
no I can't spell it out for you.

C: If you just realized what I just realized
then we'd be perfect for each other
then we'd never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder if
we missed out on each other now.

V3: It's not always the same
no it's never the same
if you don't feel it too.
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same for you.

C: If you just realize what I just realized
then we'd be perfect for each other
then we'd never find another
Just realize what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder
Just realize what I just realized

If you just realize what I just realized

OoOoOOo

missed out on each other now
missed out on each other now

Realize, realize
realize, realize

** 10.03.08

2008-03-10T09:47:00.003+08:00

liao liao liao.... dont know why, this "liao" thingy keep stay on my mind this few weeks... sigh... keep wanna liao but still can't find anyone to liao with me... all also say wanna change.. dun want to liao anymore... then me? even kday also say me now kuat minum already... am i suppose to stop my liao session already?

he called me few days ago.. talked the same thingy. i was surprised because i dont feel anything after he called, is this mean i dont miss him anymore?

alicia told me lots of things about kday that i dont suppose to know, like how he go through his life after me and idris on our relationship, how he find another girl to make me jealous. if u know me well, you should know how confuse i am now... sigh... got a test tomorrow, need to do some revision 1st, sigh... bye

2008-03-03T14:05:00.002+08:00

一盏黄黄旧旧的灯时间在旁闷不吭声
寂寞下手毫无分寸不懂得轻重之分
沉默支撑跃过陌生静静看着凌晨黄昏
你的身影失去平衡慢慢下沉
黑暗已在空中盘旋该往哪我看不见
也许爱在梦的另一端
无法存活在真实的空间想回到过去
试着抱你在怀里羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
想看你的看的世界想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜想回到过去
试着让故事继续至少不再让你离我而去
分散时间的注意这次会抱得更紧
这样挽留不知还来不来得及想回到过去
思绪不断阻挡着回忆播放
盲目的追寻仍然空空荡荡
灰蒙蒙的夜晚睡意又不知躲到哪去
一转身孤单已躺在身旁

** Chris Daughtry -Feels like tonight

2008-03-02T11:52:00.005+08:00

You, you got me
Thinking it'll be alright.
You, you told me,
"Come and take a look inside."
You believed me,
In every single lie.
But I, I failed you this time.

And it feels like tonight.
I can't believe I'm broken inside.
Can't you see that there's nothing that I wanna do,
But try to make it up to you?
And it feels like tonight,
Tonight.

I was waiting
For the day you'd come around.
I was chasing,
And nothing was all I found.
From the moment you came into my life,
You showed me what's right.

And it feels like tonight.
I can't believe I'm broken inside.
Can't you see that there's nothing that I wanna do,
But try to make it up to you?
And it feels like tonight.

I never felt like this before.
Just when I leave, I'm back for more.
Nothing else here seems to matter.
In these ever-changing days,
You're the one thing that remains.
I could stay like this forever.

And it feels like tonight.
I can't believe I'm broken inside.
Can't you see that there's nothing that I wanna do,
But try to make it up to you?
And it feels like tonight.
Tonight.
Tonight.
'Cause there's nothing that I wanna do,
But try to make it up to you.
And it feels like tonight.
Tonight.

** 29.02.08 early bird blog

2008-02-29T02:30:00.004+08:00

*On my way back home after the classes.

It's 2.30am, i just finished my 1st assignment in my degree program from buddy's house. it's so tiring. Lots of extra things to write. On my way back i saw two kenari accident lagi ni... both also white kenari, one masuk longkang somemore.

finally i found out some method for myself to stop thinking too much about him. i know i know, when i say "my method" out then many people say, "nah... told you".... hehe... while i was doing my assignment just now, i was so surprise that i actually can stop myself from thinking the unnecessary things . so i told buddy that don't be surprise if one day i tell her i will go to the college earlier to do my studies there. i need the environment and i really need to give myself a break. I really need to stop thinking those history thingy. It's a good thing also, at least i can concentrate more in my studies. hehe.... clever me!!

One more thing, in my BUS208 lecture, the lecturer's actually a very funny guy. He named me, buddy n Eva "the Charlie's angel". why? keke... because we always stick together in the college. And he's bringing us to visit a keropok factory in KKIP on the 5th March. hehe... And i am going to my 1st club trip to the Pulau Manukan this saturday....excited? not really.... but i pormised someone i'll be active in the college. In order to be one of the INTIMA committee, 1st i have to be active in a club, then become one of the committee, then i can find chances to join the INTIMA.

And we came out with a "game" today. It called "The XXX of the month". there are actually four category, which is the 38po of the month, the pig of the month, the idiot of the month and the monkey of the month. hehe...
* I'll let you guys know the result by the end of the March ya...

*Me n Buddy
*Eva N Me (two dirty addidas.... huhuhu)

*Eva says this Medical thingy logo can jadi tattoo... "angel come down from the heaven" (translate it to chinese)

** John Mayer - Comfortable

2008-02-27T21:56:00.005+08:00

how do you define simple and complicated?

how do you define what's right and wrong?

how do you define good and bad?

suddenly so many questions pop up from my mind this few days...

i used to have 3-5 classmates in my diploma class.. ya... sikit kan? but i prefer classes like that..
i just got into my new degree class now... there's like 30-40 students in the class now... duh... i totally dont like my classes now... it's so damn noisy... everyone's talking to each other and i can't even pay attention in the classes.. i hate it... hate my classes and the classmate... all are like so 8 po and 8gong.. ish...

this is what i did when i can't concentrate in the classes... but dont worry... i made complain to my head of program already....

don't know what happened, my numb life is back... and my tanduk of drinking keep come out from my head... but luckily i manage to control myself also la... can't find anyone to liao with me here also... i can't find alicia too often also, she got husband to take care, somemore i also dont want ah weng to be pissed off with her also....
hhhhhmmmmmmmmmmmm..... man... i really need a new life here..

dont know what happen to him, he stopped reply my sms since 12 feb.
suddenly he msg me one day and say sorry because didnt reply my msg for the pass few days, he said he want to forget me and hope that i will forget about him too... and he want to forget all his friend and dont want to know anything about them anymore.. he wants to forget all the past...

why? i dont know... all i can say is this is really a misery guy.... or you can call him mental problem guy... this is what my love always call him...

after that day... he really stop msging me already... till now... even rezan also dont know what happened to him.. there was one day, rezan tiba2 sms me and tell me even the futsal also close down dy.. i was so shocked and looked for hanif... hanif told me ya close down dy but will reopen on the awal bulan march... huh...... really dont know what happened to him la me....

i tried to stop myself to think too much about things... but everytime i see the way my friends talk with their bf made me think back lots of things between us... we always talk in the serious way... lots of things made me feel regret about us....

and John Mayer's Comfortable hits me now.... duh... super duper uber emo.....

Can't remember what went wrong last September
though i'm sure you'd remind me,
if you had to

Our love was, comfortable and
so broken in

I want you back

That you were my first love
Is just dumb love.
A technicality.
You were ahead of me.

美丽的童话

2008-02-25T12:44:00.004+08:00

再美丽的童话到最后怎样也会结束，
人生终离不开伤心的日子，
上帝创造人主要的原因不是要让人知道什么是快乐，
而是要人学习怎样在伤心后爬起来。

而我，好像永远都学不会。

now i feel like wanna go liao... but i got a test at 3pm and i got a assignment discussion tonight..
sigh... all my hans are not beside me... baby gone, love gone n hantu also gone... sigh....

Jojo- Weak

2008-02-21T10:20:00.000+08:00

VERSE 1:
I don't know what it is that you've done to me
But it's caused me to act in such a crazy way
Whatever it is that you do when you do what you doin'
It's a feeling that I want to stay
'cause my heart starts beating triple time
With thoughts of lovin' you on my mind
I can't figure out just what to do
When the cause and cure is you, you

CHORUS:
I get so weak in the knees
I can hardly speak, I lose all control
then somethin' takes over me
in a daze, your love's so amazing
It's not a phase
I want you to stay with me, by my side
I swallow my pride
Your love is so sweet, it knocks me right off of my feet
Can't explain why your lovin' makes me weak

VERSE 2:
Time after time after time I've tried to fight it
But your love is strong, it keeps on holdin' on
Resistance is down when you're around, pride's fading
In my condition I don't want to be alone
[Weak lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

'cause my heart starts beating triple time
With thoughts of lovin' you on my mind
I can't figure out just what to do
When the cause and cure is you, you

CHORUS

BRIDGE:
I've tried hard to fight it
No way can I deny it
Your love's so sweet
It knocks me off of my feet

CHORUS

BRIDGE 2:
--I get so weak--
Blood starts racing through my veins
--I get so weak--
Boy it's somethin' I can't explain!
--I get so weak--
Somethin' 'bout the way you do the things you do-oo-oo it
Knocks me right off of my feet (off my feet)
Can't explain why your lovin' makes me weak

** In the class

2008-02-21T09:33:00.003+08:00

eva's baju... rock kan?

** 18.02.08

2008-02-18T21:21:00.004+08:00

I brought a new cap today... huhu...

60% similar with his golf cap...
Drink drank drunk with the hantu on the 4th
TERbeli salem mentol that night...

nice car ya... it's not a toy... it's a cell phone actually... buddy's dad brought from China.. RM200plus only..
touch screen somemore...

My late V day flowers.

"You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
Uh huh
That's right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That's right

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything"

** 16.02.08

2008-02-16T11:01:00.007+08:00

just finished a hk drama ni.... uber emo... there's a very meaningful sentence here,

"失去最爱的人会令你更懂得去爱下个爱人"

"你放不下他是因为你认为你没有做好该做的东西，弄到有遗憾 "

my breakfast n lunch
this is what is do when i'm home
he's drunk
baby... miss it? liao!!
forgot to post this picture pula... CNY ni... i played with my nephews... hehehe

*chat with my baby today

2008-02-15T19:43:00.001+08:00

showing my nails... hehehee....
peace!!!!!

** 15.02.08 2.22pm

2008-02-15T14:21:00.000+08:00

1. Have you ever thought about getting
your lip pierced?
- never!

2. Does a kiss make you feel better?
- You mean now?

3. Have you ever passed out on the
bathroom floor?
- nop....

4. Do you start the water before you
get in the shower or when you get in?
- before

5. What did you do today?
- finished my blog and went to yoyo as usual

6. Have you ever brushed your teeth in
the shower?
- the....

7. Have you had more than 3
boyfriends/girlfriends at the same
time?
- nop... wont like that kind of
relationship...

8. Have you ever thought about your
death?
- ya....

10. Would you rather be in a permanent
relationship or play the field?
- i'll rather be in a permanent one

11. What is your favorite sport to
watch?
- the Liverpool match

12. What colour is your shower curtain?
- dont have any shower curtain...

13. Have you ever had stitches?
- erm... ya...

14. How long ago did you hug someone?
- erm.. forgotten dy...

19. What are you doing tomorrow?
- waiting for tomorrow to come.. then i
go pulau... yuhuuuu

21. Have you ever given money to a
homeless person?
- ya...

22. Have you ever run over an animal?
- no

23. Whats your favorite cereal?
- i dont really like cereal...

24. Have you ever had an Oreo with
peanut butter?
- nop... dont like sweet things through

25. What are you doing this moment?
- doing u?

26. Would you kiss someone of the same
sex for 100 bucks?
- hmm... i might if that's my babies...
hehehe

27. Where’s your favorite place to be?
- wherever i like...

28. What’s your favorite song?
- Let it go (Keyshia)

29. Are you more of a coffee or alcohol
drinker?
- alcohol drinker maybe?

30. Have you ever thrown shoes on a
telephone wire?
- no...

31. Have you ever been skinny dipping?
- no...

32. Have you ever climbed up a water
tower?
- ya when i'm small... i actually bath
in the water tower with my cousins...

33. Do you dream in black and white?
- hmmm... forgotten already...

35. Do you snore?
- i do when i'm dead tired...

36. Have you ever thought about being a
model?
- no...

37. Are you a redneck?
- no i think...

38. Funniest thing you heard all day?
- nothing...

39. Have you ever gotten a mosquito
bite on your face?
- ya...

40. What are you afraid of?
- losing someone i love

41. What does the 10th text message in
your inbox say?
- ke ye... ni xiang wo?

42. What does the 10th message in your
outbox say?
- i'm home lo. blar blar blar... gd 9

43. Do you like someone?
- always.

44. Do they know you like them?
- ya.

45. What will you do after you post it?
- continue my hk drama...

** Pics

2008-02-15T13:59:00.002+08:00

baby... look at ur anak... we're in the Esprit fitting room ni....
yummy yummy
am abusing the little one
converse day
i love it...

**Updates

2008-02-15T10:36:00.008+08:00

Wah... really long time didn't update my blog already...
1st of all i would like to wish all Happy Chinese New Year and Happy Belated Valentines Day..

i decided to update my blog like how my love update hers,

31th Jan - wait that stupid love in airport more than 30mints, after that trus go Jamz.

1st Feb - Kimpuk celebrate his bday in Djunction.

2nd Feb - Shen - Ah Weng went to the company annual trip so Alicia was so happy and she opened two bottle of Chivas and few jugs tat night.

3rd Feb - I WENT TO TAWAU WITH REYNIE!!!! tifiu... the hantu rezan go pick us up from the airport, then go makan, then we go rest in buddy's house. at night early bird, Idris also got join us... details malas wanna say la... conclusion he mabuk la tat night... and he keep curi2 tengok me... wahahhahaahhahahaahaha........

4th Feb - go back to kk by road with the white devil vigo... sampai kk is 5th early morning already...

5th Feb - ohhhh... i mabuk di Djunction..... got the hantu help me take picture of me mabuk lagi... (plus i got my cap on the 5th also) uhuuu... really gila babi mabuk... rezan say i terjangkit with paky already... bugger...

6th Feb - went back to KB for CNY dinner, i have to help collin to drive his car tat day, because alots of road block, surprisingly i went to bed before 12 that day, didn;t liao... malas.. cannot smoke one...

7th Feb -1st day of CNY, had been start drinking from 12pm to 3am (i mean the next day) Bahar, Chivas, Beer, Air Bunga.

8th Feb - 2nd day of CNY, planned to go back to kk but collin and kimpuk open house, then tak jadi la... Bahar, Black lable, Beer, Codon Blue, water.

9th Feb - back to kk early morning with my parents, mei tze open house. wow... 18 ekor chi ling in her house nie...
this is one of the chi ling
Part of them.

at night went to Charlotte's house makan sun bien celebrate her bday... after that went to D junction with the hantu again... i alos dont know why that time so sleepy, i think i can fall asleep already that time . there was a girl (eva's gf's fren) barb if i'm mistaken, mabuk gila. Total lost sampai we need to help her to check in herself in Warisan's hotel before we go The place makan... tat girl really kasihan also... because all her mabuk faqce also kena snap... pity pity.....

10th Feb - go to uncle's house for lunch in kingfisher... night went to pak chu's house dinner.

11th Feb - i promised my 2nd brother i will spen him eat at least breakfast when he's back. then i bawa he whole family go fu ping makan, after that i go find Alicia, bugger. she say go y8imcha, manatau the yimcha is at Cempaka... at night dinner in my house, all the monkeys came.

12th Feb - My cousin's wedding, 8 plus morning i sampai kb already. oh ya oh... sikit lagi hsiao ping n ngiu miss flight to miri because of me. lambat bangun... 6am o... lack of sleep trus me... Continue the KB thingy k... Willie's the best man.. keke... Planed to overnight in KB that night, but my mum was so shock seeing me and Collin then drink... malas la trus..

13th Feb - went to Chelsy's saloon to do my nails!! thanks ya an chi... monkeys!!!!

next time i wanna ask an chi help me draw yoyo and cici... (what's yoyo and cici? nah... see www.yoyocici.com) i'm so in love with yoyo n cici ni.... Baby!! Love!!! if u two nampak yoyo n cici's stuff buy for me ehhhhhh!!!!!!

14th Feb - lonely valentine. not that dont have ppl ask me out, is i dont wanna go go with them... i mean like why should i go out with them if i dont have the feeling of valentine thingy with them? am i right? if he misunderstood how? then i got sampah need to kasi bersih already.... kan? hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehe......... then... i went to dinner with chelsy.. every year also like that.. we were thinking maybe kena curse already ni.. kkekeke.. after dinner go watch movie with hsiao ping and ngiu and his fren... [Kungfu Dunk]