** Vanished... bye bye

known the fact for quite awhile, before my mum transferred to Labuan. now there's evident to support the fact.

what do i felt now? dont feel like talk about it... dont really know how to overcome the mood i am having. happy that the evidence finally came out? disappointed? feel like cryin but what for to cry?

i do feel disappointed for things happening now... he's someone that i admire since i'm small... a hero for me... everything's vanished by now... i'm having my final exam next wednesday, been studying very hard this few days, when things come out, i though i can ignore things and get going with my study. cannot tu....

like things i always felt proud went away just a minute like "that".. (the hand thingy, imagine it).. always felt proud that both of them are so loving every single minute even if both are 50 plus already. felt pround that i am having a happy family... but now? hmmm.... suddenly gone....

dont feel like staying at home since he's home? even if he's not making a single noise, i still felt that he's so annoying? now i really wish i have 2nd home at kk... at least i dont have to care about anything since my mum said i dont need to think anything since their problem. i dont know if i should tell my brothers about this, can't imagine what will they do after knowing things. since the war is not started yet.. better stay quite for things.... even if the war's started, i dont think i will give anything comment, but to suppport every decision my mum do...

what's going to happen in the family? shite him... SHITE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate him!!!! DONT HE HAVE ANY BRAIN TO THINK WHAT THE HELL IS HE DOING NOW? HOW OLD IS HIM ANYWAY??????? 56 YRS OLD MY FRIEND!!! SHITE!!! CAN'T BELIEVE THE BRAIN STILL HAVEN FINISH CONNECT FROM 0 TO 56 YEARS OLD!!!! THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING MR SHITE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS NOT THE 1ST TIME FOR U TO DO THE WRONG THING... WHY DO YOU NEED TO REPEAT THE WRONG STEPS? THE FAMILY IS NOT WORTH FOR YOU TO BEHAVE YOURSELF??? IS THAT WHAT IN THE MIND??? BULL SHITE!!!! BETTER DONT START TO EXPLAIN BULL SHITE TO ME... TALK TO THE PILLOW IF U REALLY WANT TO....

** 10th to 11th Oct - Survivor + Dad birthday Trip

*On our way to Pulau Penyu

** 07.10.08

*I love this guy... Alot! Lao gong lao gong~!!!

*Lao Lao Lao Lao Lao Lao gong!!!

* My babies Dancing in SMC while visiting Nai Nai

*Chocolates From my mum!! I Love Hershey's!!!

*Again!!

* Look at that.. any idea? no kan? all are prawns.. i also dont know why my dad wanna buy so many.... maybe wanna buka pasar udang...

**07.10.08

Today.... Unemployment rate gone up... at least 0.000001%...
And the only certainty is uncertainty...... shite....

**男人女人

To: Dearest Lim Kiun Pak

爱爱爱爱了几回
也明白其中滋味付出的从来不会等于收回
我却还在等待着谁能出现
伤伤伤伤了几回
也曾经为爱憔悴
爱情里好人总比坏人狼狈
我却还是学不会狠心对谁
男人男人多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼
女人女人我答应做个好人
我答应用我一生来换你的快乐一生
爱爱爱爱了几回
也明白其中滋味
付出的从来不会等于收回
我却还在等待着谁能出现
伤伤伤伤了几回
也曾经为爱憔悴
爱情里好人总比坏人狼狈
我却还是学不会狠心对谁
男人男人多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼
女人女人我答应做个好人
我答应用我一生来换你的快乐一生
男人男人多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼
女人女人我答应做个好人不会再让我(你)心疼
一等再等你就是我等的那个人
男人男人
女人女人
多么希望你是对的人

From: Dearest Mei Hsing

**05.10.08

yuho... 1st of all, sorry for the inconvenient caused, i restricted the account.. dont feel like letting other non sense ppl to view the blog... hehe...

just came back from my short raya - tawau - trip... quite a trip.. on the trip i figured that fall in love and fail in love is just a words in different. during that time, i felt insecure with the relationship... never thought of things would happened between us.. i really hope there's no intention to cheat because when i found out about the messages i really felt cold and unsecured. really hope to get a flight back to kk at that moment... but things are settled now.. hopefully there wont be 2nd time. because i understand myself well, when things come with the 3rd person in the relationship, no doubt i will be the 1st one who pull myself out from the relationship.. i won allow a single mistake happen in the relationship... i mean when he took the 1st step he would know things will destroy the relationship. if he's the one who dare to take tat step means he wants the relationship to be destroy.. agree? and God knows what are mean to be.. HE knows what's the best for me..

oh ya... curious what happen ka? nvm la... forget about it... as i said, things are settled....

Duh tired... very tired in the tawau trip... feel like i am getting a fever soon... hopefully i will not come because i am waiting for my Pulau Tiga trip this friday!! kekeke... my lao gong and ah zai coming back this thursday... kekeke... oh duh... bad news... my dad is going to be home tomorrow... why dont he just come back with my mum wednesday... bugger....

anyway... tired... nite nite guys!!