** Christmas coming and i miss you

Christmas is coming... duh... i can still remmeber the moments i celebrate christmas with my family... there will be big parties throw by aunt Grace, there will a lot and lots of christmas present for the kids, nice foods and drinks... I still remmeber when i was small at keningau, i like to be the entertainer of there all by singging and dancing in front of everyone... and there will be alot of the uncle and aunt sitting along with the warm christmas eve...



As i grow older, or i should say after the whole family moved to KK and uncle James moved to Tomomggong for the estate medical assistant, then the christmas party switched into the estate. it's been 21 yrs spending christmas with her, and this year... there will be 1st year christmas without her, i really miss her alot.... i think if the monkeys fren around there will be someone understand me here...



i had dreams about her this few days, how come everyone who dream of her can be seen that she's so happy and healthy in heaven.. but while in my dream, she's suffering so much? just woke up from my sleep, the moment i woke up, i missed her alot. cried till the eyes were swollen...



i miss you....



I used to love and hate christmas so much... i love christmas because of the celebration bring up along those relative come together with you to gather around and hate christmas because i will get envy on ppl who have their another one with them during the celebration.. go check back the older blog about last year chirstmas. i did have fun with the family during that time... but i never knew it was the last time with her...



ba... bye bye la... malas wanna talk lagi... tears cant stop leaking...

** 27.11.08

Got my new tattoo last night.... i think it's around 7.30pm... keke... finally my butterfly got another kawan with her already... and i kasi her pakai baju baru dy since her baju lama's warna jatuh already... keke.. going to update this post with the pictures real soon... it's only RM120.. cheap o kan... thanks collin!!!

5 more days to go... hate kk's life since i dont have anything to do here.... i rather have my studies with me now, at least i can study... adoi..... keep sick a this few days... why a? until i dont feel like going out from house... i stay on my comfort house for the whole day already... kekekeke....

Con..

It's 2am now and i just finished a drawing for my lao gong as i promised him earlier...

I dont mean anything by drawing this with the paint but i think this is really his DREAM, WISH OF THE YEAR!!! it's 80% at this moment... i dont know when will it reach the boiling point... few days back he said we stop going to the clubs until we meet each other and go together... i think it's a"7 days countdown during that time... look wat has he done... he is in the club with his friend now... it's only a 2 days ago thing and he has totally forget about it... nvm... i doesnt really put any hope for his to remember my things anyway...

he'll forget the thigns i told his in a minute everything... when will he remember things i said to him?

-solution: he wants to wait me get pot lot then he will remember the things i said...

how did i get the solution?

-He told me... see... guys... get what i mean?

** Labuan plus KK

Eh kawan... tired upload photos in here... i uploaded all in facebook... go check it out there... :)

* Little bit KL trip pics

*baby u see urself a... so toh soi a i tell u...

*hao geli oooo

*went to fish spa with love, baby and lao gong

*In Airasia airport kk... fai fai go into the plan plzz... tired standing already..

*trying on our new camera.

* Same a k... go check those pictures out at facebook

** 21.11.08

It should be a feeling that i would like to remind myself on the 20.11.08, but it's 2.33am in the morning already... nvm... it's me and my lao gong's 6months anniversary today :) happy happy.... but i dont think he will remember a thing... nvm..

Hmmm.... oh ya... again... sorry for not updating the blog for a while... went through a lot of things and places during this period, dont really have the time and mood to update this earthlife thingy yet... kekeke... sorry... i promise i will write out a summury in this lovely diary as soon as i am "available". kekeke... and lots and lots of pictures to upload... so i need to make sure i have enough time to sit infront of the computer to do the update...

Ok... main point... here come the main point.. i went through my old blog a minutes ago... woww.... a big wow to my msn blog... although there's not much details stated inside But, really do recall me alot of thing about the past.... and it remind me how do i go through all the stuff i went through... my dear monkeys friend.. suddenly miss them alot... because i recalled the pain and worries i gave them... the blog reminded me how important they are to me in my life... how i can;t go through things without them... here again... dear babies, i'm truthly sorry about the worries i gave to you guys in the past... *sob* i love you guys so much... i really dont know how can i go through things without you guys....

things started to change since everybody have their own life... including me... i could feel that everyone is growing up and found their own life... or i should say things started to turn into a "matured" friendship since everyone is growing up.... like how ppl always describe friendship, you dont always get to bump into each other because of the time limit, but they will always inside your heart... those monkeys i used to see them everyday is no more free to go out yamcha with me anymore, all have their own road and choice in life.. they are going through thier life that would determine their future... working, saving money for things...

so does me, i changed alot within this year... go through alot of things... alot of 1st time experiencesssss.... alot of character came up, some character went off my life... i have a totally changed life after the middle of the year... i pay lot lot lot lot lot more attention on my studies since i am going into my 3rd yr soon, ya i dont mean like i didnt pay attention on my studies before la k... keke... life totally changed... from a everyday drinking life to a everyday stay home life... imagine that... friday night? i am home doing my taxation revision and the exam is still weeks to go? unbeliveable for me.. even if chelsy i also seldom jumpa her already... and elaine... sorry baby... i dont know why everytime also got things bottering us to meet up... mesti got hal happen.... alicia also... since she move to country height i also seldom see her already.... reynie... i miss you so much... badly... everybody i think... collin, kday, the gang i always went to shen with, my cousin... duh.. think back i really spend alot of time on my study for the past 6 months... i think this is what you do when you get to really understand the responsibility you are really caring in life... i mean my responsibility for now is study, get a good result.. things scared me alot.. i really scare i wont get through my degree program, to prevent fail, i better study hard... am i right my S? kekeke...

Argh.... everyone said i gain my weight!!! shite... i really need to get myself to do some exercise already... i went to dinner at ah jia's house just now... before that i went to fetch my "in law" and ah fung at airport just now... see what i mean? planned to find alicia and elaine after 5... suddenly get a phone call from my lao gong said i need to go airport and dinner... i dont mean to blame anything but i really dont know why everytime also got things stopping us to meet up... okok.. go back to the story... when i went up to ah jia's house, ah jia and her friend said i am fat already.... ah doi... ok ok... i better go into bed now... i promised myself to go jogging early in the morning!!! i must!!! Mei Hsing!!! save urself!!!!!!! okok... good nite babies!!! muaksss!!!!

** Vanished... bye bye

known the fact for quite awhile, before my mum transferred to Labuan. now there's evident to support the fact.

what do i felt now? dont feel like talk about it... dont really know how to overcome the mood i am having. happy that the evidence finally came out? disappointed? feel like cryin but what for to cry?

i do feel disappointed for things happening now... he's someone that i admire since i'm small... a hero for me... everything's vanished by now... i'm having my final exam next wednesday, been studying very hard this few days, when things come out, i though i can ignore things and get going with my study. cannot tu....

like things i always felt proud went away just a minute like "that".. (the hand thingy, imagine it).. always felt proud that both of them are so loving every single minute even if both are 50 plus already. felt pround that i am having a happy family... but now? hmmm.... suddenly gone....

dont feel like staying at home since he's home? even if he's not making a single noise, i still felt that he's so annoying? now i really wish i have 2nd home at kk... at least i dont have to care about anything since my mum said i dont need to think anything since their problem. i dont know if i should tell my brothers about this, can't imagine what will they do after knowing things. since the war is not started yet.. better stay quite for things.... even if the war's started, i dont think i will give anything comment, but to suppport every decision my mum do...

what's going to happen in the family? shite him... SHITE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate him!!!! DONT HE HAVE ANY BRAIN TO THINK WHAT THE HELL IS HE DOING NOW? HOW OLD IS HIM ANYWAY??????? 56 YRS OLD MY FRIEND!!! SHITE!!! CAN'T BELIEVE THE BRAIN STILL HAVEN FINISH CONNECT FROM 0 TO 56 YEARS OLD!!!! THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING MR SHITE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS NOT THE 1ST TIME FOR U TO DO THE WRONG THING... WHY DO YOU NEED TO REPEAT THE WRONG STEPS? THE FAMILY IS NOT WORTH FOR YOU TO BEHAVE YOURSELF??? IS THAT WHAT IN THE MIND??? BULL SHITE!!!! BETTER DONT START TO EXPLAIN BULL SHITE TO ME... TALK TO THE PILLOW IF U REALLY WANT TO....

** 10th to 11th Oct - Survivor + Dad birthday Trip

*On our way to Pulau Penyu