** Christmas coming and i miss you

Christmas is coming... duh... i can still remmeber the moments i celebrate christmas with my family... there will be big parties throw by aunt Grace, there will a lot and lots of christmas present for the kids, nice foods and drinks... I still remmeber when i was small at keningau, i like to be the entertainer of there all by singging and dancing in front of everyone... and there will be alot of the uncle and aunt sitting along with the warm christmas eve...



As i grow older, or i should say after the whole family moved to KK and uncle James moved to Tomomggong for the estate medical assistant, then the christmas party switched into the estate. it's been 21 yrs spending christmas with her, and this year... there will be 1st year christmas without her, i really miss her alot.... i think if the monkeys fren around there will be someone understand me here...



i had dreams about her this few days, how come everyone who dream of her can be seen that she's so happy and healthy in heaven.. but while in my dream, she's suffering so much? just woke up from my sleep, the moment i woke up, i missed her alot. cried till the eyes were swollen...



i miss you....



I used to love and hate christmas so much... i love christmas because of the celebration bring up along those relative come together with you to gather around and hate christmas because i will get envy on ppl who have their another one with them during the celebration.. go check back the older blog about last year chirstmas. i did have fun with the family during that time... but i never knew it was the last time with her...



ba... bye bye la... malas wanna talk lagi... tears cant stop leaking...