**让你欢喜让你忧

你说我让你欢喜让你忧。。
很希望我还会有机会听你唱这首歌给我听。。。

爱到尽头 覆水难收
爱悠悠 恨悠悠
为何要到无法挽留
才又想起你的温柔
给我关怀为我解忧
为我凭添许多愁
在深夜无尽等候
独自泪流 独自忍受
多想说声我真的爱你
多想说声对不起你
你哭着说情缘已尽
难再续 难再续
就请你给我多一点点时间
再多一点点问候
不要一切都带走
就请你给我多一点点空间
再多一点点温柔
不要让我如此难受
你这样一个女人 让我欢喜让我忧
让我甘心为了你 付出我所有

爱到尽头 覆水难收
爱悠悠 恨悠悠
为何要到无法挽留
才又想起你的温柔
给我关怀为我解忧
为我凭添许多愁
在深夜无尽等候
独自泪流 独自忍受
多想说声我真的爱你
多想说声对不起你
你哭着说情缘已尽
难再续 难再续
就请你给我多一点点时间
再多一点点问候
不要一切都带走
就请你给我多一点点空间
再多一点点温柔
不要让我如此难受
就请你给我多一点点时间
再多一点点问候
不要一切都带走
就请你给我多一点点空间
再多一点点温柔
不要让我如此难受
你这样一个女人 让我欢喜让我忧
让我甘心为了你 付出我所有

** 结束了。。

十二月十五日，我们真的结束的这段感情。我还能说什么，事情演变成这样，我真的不知除了分手我们还有什么选择。因为你给我的感觉是你现在最想放弃的东西是我。

也许你对我的爱很早已消失了，有几久没听过你真心的说我爱你，我也几乎忘记了。你呢? 你还记得吗? 今天觉得很难呼吸，好像周围的人都很开心。 有很多东西我真的还是很不明白，为什么你说的分手原因完全可以没有因为她? 如果不是她，为什么她可以是我们每次吵架的火种? 你真的很爱她吧，就连跟我分手都可以在保护她，我是该羡慕她吗? 因为她得到了我所谓的"最幸福的事"。

原来人在爱情里受伤的时候真的可以变的不同。原来在爱情里受伤真的可以想东西想的很灰。原来受过伤后才会相信爱情里专一的对一个人真的是个错。原来坏人真的可以过得更很开心。原来你之前的感情教你的东西不是要专一，而是记得分手前一定要先找到令外一个先陪在你身边。可能我真正要羡慕的人不是她，而是你。

每当自己在发呆时会在想，你是什么时候会想起我，你们两个在我和你的床睡时你会想我吗? 还是我根本没有出现过在你脑海中? 到底我的离开你会有几伤心?到底你会有几舍不得? 头脑好像还有很多疑问，说可以回答我?

我。。。 以后还会相信这个世界有真爱吗? 到底爱是什么?

** WHY?

why am i feels like things is changing around? does good thing really dont belong to me? does every good things that i thought will stay with me forever will go away soon?
does forever really exist? anyone? please?

are things between both of us really changing? or i am thinking too much? why this kind of feelings keep stuck inside my heart and i do really feel damn hurt... why?
why this hurt feeling feels so pain?? are we going to be ok? or should i really get ready to be alone again?

God, if i really grand for one wish for the rest of my life... i just want him to stay beside me.... please?

** 23.03.09

Kinda disappointed in things....... tired of thinking.... just wish to concentrate in my assignment.....

** 22.03.09

dear diary...

it's been a long long time i didn't post up any of my updates here.... been busy for my study and tuition.... those two things just drive me to crazy sometimes... it has been a very very stressful period... and i don't even know how to express my stress out... i didn't go club for like ages, i quit drinking for a period of time... things just going not that well for me this few days, i have no idea what makes me feel so moody and uncontrollable. i just hate this kind of feelings happen on me..

i think having lifestyle like hsiao ping is not a bad idea after all, she can go out without bringing her handphone since she know that ngiu will only call him at 10pm.. so she set herself a freedom period everyday... it's a upper level of relationship i think.. that's not a bad idea... at least they still keep the relationship... at least they still love each other and the most important thing is.... as long as they don't fight... i mean... what's the main purpose for a relationship actually? for my opinion, as long as they don't fight, they still love each other, that's it. what do human being tends to care about what the another one doing, how's the life going on... they will share whenever they want to share with u... why do u so bother to disturb their life? no one have the right to do so... except God... a person doesn't belong to anyone... they just belong to God... wow.... deep... ocean deep... i think this is the role of a perfect girlfriend... the most reasonable girlfriend in the world characteristic would include this i think.... good... this is my target.. or i should say goal of the year!! i want to be the most adorable, reasonable perfect girlfriend in the world!!!!!!!! by the end of the year, we'll see if i get the award.... if i really get the award... hmmmm.... going to award myself with something.... hmmm........ we'll see

oh ya! keke... birthday coming.... nothing much i expect... i just want my NDS to be with me.... love my NDS.....