** RIP Aunt Grace

it's been a while i didnt upload my blog dy kan... busy for drinking session and study... and just finished my final exam, having my short short short semester break now

15th april, 5pm- doing revision for the 2nd paper on 16th, my mum suddenly said my aunt went to emergency room.
9pm - aunt admitted to female ward because of difficult in breathing. went to visit her at the ward, she looks so suffer.

16th april, 7pm- finished my last paper and went to makan with classmate. after makan and mandi, i went to hospital and visit my aunt. i still remember the scene, holding her hand
looking at the heart beat machine, within 20 mints, more than 10 times her heart beat turns to 0.
11pm plus - my beloved aunt passed away peacefully.

My late beloved aunt is my godmother while i get blessed when i am 12 yrs old. Cant explain how close am i with her. i miss her lots.

** sandi....

* i love this picture

*rainbow

what should i say? i suppose to be happy after the bday party... thanks for everyone who attended the party.. hey, alson pop up tu... wahahhaa.....

lots of things happened this few days.. before this bday party i actually felt much more better, felt that finally i can climb out from the high wall and stand up myself.. but suddenly all of those old feelings pop up from the old old memories... or i should say things that had been hidden inside the ocean deep in the heart suddenly came back... baby, remember how zombie am i when i am having the ai mei thingy with willi? all those feelings pop up again... he's treating me very well, but i know it's just because i am the bday girl. i dont like this kind of feelings. everyone in the world tot me and him finally got the chance to be together, but only me and him know that it is so impossible for us to be together. really tired with this kind of feeelings. he's too complicated for me, why am i always need to fall for those MPG? what's mpg? check back the previous posts. how can i describe the relationship with him? the normal line for a relationship should be like this... peng you -- ai mei -- then pakto... but ppl always wont stay long in the ai mei stage... both of us stayed too long at that stage, we'll only stop at that stage and wont go further on.

destiny... what's destiny actually? willi told me destiny is for those people that have passed through some stages and wont be able to be together. what do you think?

lots of things happened on the bday party. i was dead drunk sampai can't walk into the house. stayed in willi's car for hours. and i suddenly woke up and scold willi ( i can't really remember why and what did i scolded him) The next day, i called him and asked him what did i said but he dont want to tell me. he said that i talked something hurtful to him and made him can't get into sleep.

i went to see monkey on the sunday morning with willi, aweng and alicia. alicia said must make me happy on that day... willi dont want to go to at 1st.. i know it's because of my bday, gei mien ma... felt like he was forced to go to the zoo with me... two yrs dy lur... two years ago he promised to bring me go to see monkeys but he never take any action. i should be happy but i felt like he was forced to go with me on the sunday.... he know he would be scold by alicia if he refuse to go... hate to involve the 3rd party in this kind of situation... i dont like the 3rd party to settle the things for me... things would be more complicated tu....

on the other hand, idris sms me on saturday evening... i totally can't recognize his number, called love and ask her to check is that 019 his number lagi tu... he said sorry for things he had done in the past and we had chit chat for awhile.

mirror.... baby... i feel emo o now.. uber emo... i suppose to go to bed at 8pm but it is 1am already now.... feel like crying but i dont know why.... why? cant help me rearrange those feelings inside ka? feel so confuse but i dont know what am i feeling confuse....

i'm listening to luther vandross's I'd rather... i tot this song suppose to be idris's song... but why i feel like it's actually willi's song? all this while, did i do something wrong? did i made the wrong decision few months ago?

mirror, i know something bad happened to you... if u need someone to talk, sms me and we talk in the skype ok? miss you pls take care...

* 07.04.08

*on my bday party

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* love my anak... but too manja dy

*finally!!!!

* the result of March!! EVA FAM!!!

* uppered wira pernah see mou?

* Choy Ling

** Expectation?

it's been awhile i didnt update my blog dy kan... so tired for the college stuff... presentation.. assignment... memang suda zombie.. the assigment and the presentation make me lagi jadi zombie..

bday coming this sunday... will throw a party on saturday.. i wonder what do people expect for on their bday.. maybe when their still a kids, many things la kan... presentSsSs... but for me.. i also dunno.. i just hope everyone gets happy and happy... didn't expect for anything... or i should say gone through so many things, i dont even dare to expect anything... even from anyone.. because anything can change in a minute...

went to soho with the monkeys last nite... (oh ya.. elaine... Jamz increase their price, no body wanna go there dy.. they dun even have happy hour.. trus everyone changed to soho.. now Jamz tutup kedai.. "renovation" konon... even sydney also jobless..) u know when u're bit tipsy then u dare to talk alot? and u will be memory lost the next day? gosh!! My God..!!! i was so tipsy and i dont even remember what did i talked to kdayc... i told him i like him in prosa klasik!! bugger...!!! feel like killing myself. and kdayc told alicia (the CNN) and alicia told everyone this evening...
Gosh.. i really felt malu la.. and i hate kdayc for doing that... they put a bet on me because i told them i wont talk to kdayc from now till my bday... but lastly the bet cancel dy... but i am actually betting with myself... i should let him know what he can do and what he cannot do for things between us... shite...

and i actually invited kira on my bday... wait for my update jak la k... i just hope i wont be drunk on my bday nite... but everyone's telling me "meihsing... u're going to get drunk by that time... trust me!!" even collin.... duh...

oh by the way... baby!! collin ambil hati u didnt reply his msg when he sms u said thanks for the jed... sedih betulll!!!!!!!!!!!!! tell u somehting also la k... collin going after ur anak now... chelsy... kekekekekekewahahahhahahahahahahahahah1!!!!!!!!!