it's been awhile i didnt update my blog dy ya... sorry... dont really have the mood to write on anything recently... look at the recent post... i'd rather post some pictures to keep u guys "entertain" instead of writing some bull shite out...
erm.... how should i start out with things.... ok... i have a quite long holiday trip to Tawau during my semester break... well i would say i enjoyed everything.. spending time with the love one, all the liaoing sessions, the seafood eating session.... and i would like to say thank you to pak's mother's mooncake... nice mooncake... never tasted a wine mooncake before... guys, you should try the mooncake if u have the chance to do so, hm... dont know how to describe it, anyway... new taste jak la... keke...
another thing happening to me now is... duh... i get so emotional nowadays... why? i dont really know... get so sensitive with things. i mean like it's ok for me when i dont start to think, or i should say nothing reminds me to think about the NON SENSE things. but when i starts thinking the issues, i will get so emotional and really need things to clam down myself to avoid things to become bad.... i mean like if i dont do the claming down thingy i might start a fight and end up there's no point in fighting when there's actually noting happen? right?
i've been thinking what would be the reason for me to get so emo recently.. i mean like... yes... emo is not something new for me.. but.. i dont really like this emo thingy to bother me when i really want to get my bud up to put more and more effort in my studies and my tuition students... i mean like, there's lot of things for me to do and i really dont want this emo thingy to get control over me.... one very big reason i found out is i think i am too depending on him... yes yes yes... i am... it's not like i am depending him on the financial way or what... hmm... i should say i might be too get used to it with the life that when we 1st start... like we'll look for each other like after an hour.. i dont know what happened now.. might be he start to get real busy.. i mean REAL busy with the work and i am the one who still standing still at the starting point... chehh... this sounds like i am not improving myself... i dont mean like i am just standing... i mean like i will still continue doing my things but the only thing is, i will wait for the calls or msgs while i am doing my things and trust me.. i HATE this kind of feeling... hate waiting for something that you'll never know when will things happen.... i mean like guys who know my story from the back will know how much i dont like this simple word.. WAIT...
but hey... wake up wake up... where's the rational me? ok... i dont mean like this is anyone's fault... my fault... i mean like i know how a relationship goes as the time goes by... like how the girlfriends have shared, can't expect things will be remain like before... duh... i hate myself for thinking this kind of things.... but i really dont know how to overcome this kind of feelings... maybe i should accept wat lee ling told me... and i guess that's the rule in the game of love... now, i should get used to it with this kind of life... and i think i should really get myself to real busy so i would have not much time to think about us? i seriously dont like to become the annoying kind... ego problem.. big ego problem... well, i dont mean anything by posting this blog... it's just something i wanted to write out and remind myself i need to overcome this emo thingy and control myself back...
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