** Vanished... bye bye

known the fact for quite awhile, before my mum transferred to Labuan. now there's evident to support the fact.

what do i felt now? dont feel like talk about it... dont really know how to overcome the mood i am having. happy that the evidence finally came out? disappointed? feel like cryin but what for to cry?

i do feel disappointed for things happening now... he's someone that i admire since i'm small... a hero for me... everything's vanished by now... i'm having my final exam next wednesday, been studying very hard this few days, when things come out, i though i can ignore things and get going with my study. cannot tu....

like things i always felt proud went away just a minute like "that".. (the hand thingy, imagine it).. always felt proud that both of them are so loving every single minute even if both are 50 plus already. felt pround that i am having a happy family... but now? hmmm.... suddenly gone....

dont feel like staying at home since he's home? even if he's not making a single noise, i still felt that he's so annoying? now i really wish i have 2nd home at kk... at least i dont have to care about anything since my mum said i dont need to think anything since their problem. i dont know if i should tell my brothers about this, can't imagine what will they do after knowing things. since the war is not started yet.. better stay quite for things.... even if the war's started, i dont think i will give anything comment, but to suppport every decision my mum do...

what's going to happen in the family? shite him... SHITE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate him!!!! DONT HE HAVE ANY BRAIN TO THINK WHAT THE HELL IS HE DOING NOW? HOW OLD IS HIM ANYWAY??????? 56 YRS OLD MY FRIEND!!! SHITE!!! CAN'T BELIEVE THE BRAIN STILL HAVEN FINISH CONNECT FROM 0 TO 56 YEARS OLD!!!! THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING MR SHITE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS NOT THE 1ST TIME FOR U TO DO THE WRONG THING... WHY DO YOU NEED TO REPEAT THE WRONG STEPS? THE FAMILY IS NOT WORTH FOR YOU TO BEHAVE YOURSELF??? IS THAT WHAT IN THE MIND??? BULL SHITE!!!! BETTER DONT START TO EXPLAIN BULL SHITE TO ME... TALK TO THE PILLOW IF U REALLY WANT TO....